Am I really up to it? Past days have been stressed. Too much for me to cope. I seriously think I have too much commitments, and this is making me hesistate alot. Am I really up to it?

Firstly, I have match on Monday, and I had to leave class early, skipping bio, chem and math. Then on tuesday, I had to leave class early once again because of the prize presentation. Both days, I reached home after 8pm. And on both days, I had tests to study for the next day. On monday, I studied for SS and did my chinese compo. I slept at 12midnight.

On tuesday, I had to study for Chinese chapter 1-6 along with 20 other chengyus and trust me it wasn't easy, and I still had to finish my ACW with 10 over question on surds, when I missed the lesson he taught a new formula. I was lagging like a snail and I was pissed with myself for not being able to stay awake. I studied till 12.30am, leaving behind a few chengyu because nothing was going in. I didn't finish my A Math, English Compre, Physics that night. I was totally _)*%_)@)_#@&(#)(@%*_@(_ )*_@*%_)$(_)@(# irritated and I had to restort to studying in the bus every morning.

Today, I had my chinese test which I screw up pretty badly. I really hope to do well because I failed the previous one on stupid san guo yan yi where I can swear that I really studied both books! Over. And yes I explained to Mr Mok and he gave me grace and said if I had any doubts, I could approach him, I'm really damn bloody grateful, THANKYOU MR MOK! I thought I could finish up my due homework on thursday but I totally forgot that I'm the I/C for founder's day and since meixuan's not able to attend tmr's rehearsal, it just gives me another reason to go. I was really dumbfounded the moment I realised I had no day off for myself. :( Total despair and I'm not exxagerating. I really didn't have the mood to train today, I mean my mind was on the big pile of shit waiting for me to clear. I don't Have Any Extra Energy To Keep Fretting Over Things. Fatigue was overwhelming, I wished I could faint and be sent into the hospital.

Tomorrow's tests is being brought back to friday so I'll have two tests on that day. THANKYOU OH GOD FOR BRINGING IT BACK BE IT GOOD OR BAD BUT I FEEL IT'S GOOD NOW. I'VE FINISHED MY ACW, TAKING THE BREAK AND CONTINUING. IT'S 10.30 NOW, I CAN STILL LAST ANOTHER 2 HOURS BEFORE I SHUT DOWN.

I KNOW OF 5 tests I'll have next week. F the schooooool's system, it's killing me real badly. Thank you Bryan and Meixuan for your concern and support these past days.  ¶ 10:13 PM 0 Comments

  SENTENCE OF THE DAY:
(Quoted from grace)

"My love for you is like lao sai. It's uncontrollable and overflowing."

Prize presentation tomorrow.
B girls - 4th in EZ
B boys - 3rd in EZ
C girls - 3rd in EZ
C boys - Either 1st or 2nd.

One season over this fast. We're gonna take over soon. With greater authority comes greater responsibilty- Can't deny the fact that I'm very much looking forward to zonals next year with my batch. Because I feel I don't deserve the trophy I'll be holding tomorrow, or rather, it wouldn't mean alot to me. It wasn't exchanged by my sweat and pain. Okay maybe 10% of mine since I played a singles and doubles game during round 1. =/

Off to study SS. Ciaos.  ¶ 8:08 PM 0 Comments

  This week was a slack week for me, I'm half thankful for it because I didn't really hit any books the whole week. But...

For the next 4 school days, I'll have %)(&@)()^&()*)_@_@)* six tests!

Okay, so no more hana kimi for the whole of next weeek, no more slacking and using of computer but more of my beloved books!

Monday: Free day! :)))
Tuesday: Socials studies (Case study on Singapore)
Wednesday: English Exposition, Chinese 1-6, chengyu 150-171)
Thurday: Biology test!, Social Studies ( Case study on Britain)
Friday: Chemistry test

Okayyyeee hope I would be able to cope. :)

Alicia's coming back today!

We did obstacle course for PE and we were too engrossed with rope climbing that we didn't even play anything that day. I managed to clear the wall and window but the stupid rope was a damn failure for me. If I wanna be a fire women, I'll probably need to train hard so that I can climb up and slide down with much ease. Eh, but on the other hand, 5 people from our class could do it. :) Amanda was the first to complete, then Waiping, Wanying, Siewchen and Jingying. Andrea and Jingying were crowned the "most perservering" because they were the ones that kept on trying. ^^

Alright let me enjoy today first, I'm gonna catch "Just follow Law" with Bren Bren later, and then after Pan finished her flag day, we'll (Bren Pan Bel and I) would go marina to walk walk shop shop. I'm damn excited to watch that, because of the positive comments from everybody. Norbit seems nice, but it's NC 16 and... just weird.

On our way back from VS yesterday, something really retarded happened. I was just trying to display my retardedness and apparently trying to imitate big tree in hana kimi, and was waving at "Eddie Murphy"















And little did I realised that actually a group of VS guys were looking at me, and suddenly I see shadows waving back at me. I was shocked because I never even thought of waving at them -____- It was ultimate dumbness because I was just trying to wave at Eddie! :(

In the end, they had to take out the number 31 tag so as to let me have a clear view of their faces. We were communicating through handsigns, and they got so impatient with us, they started to get vulgar. Typical.















Oh yes oh yes, here comes.....
*DRUM ROLLLS!!!!!!!!!*















My idol to be-- PANTY DORA WITH HER ONE PULL UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  ¶ 9:59 AM 0 Comments

  I'm sorry. I'm hooked on soap operas once again, because the new year was too boring I had to have something interesting to kill time. I've been home the past few days, using the com yet not online because this com sucks so bad it'll lag everything and my show can't go on.

Well........................................ I can't deny the fact that I'm going gah gah goo goo over the show, actually the main character!!!!!! But I think I'm falling in back to my hateful self, where I can even quarrel with my brother over the using of com. This is the detestable me, because I don't know what have gone wrong with me. I don't want this temporary craze to spoil my long-built relationship, yet, aiya, if the relationship is strong enough, it won't destroy. Brother please show me that you're really not petty, if you are still willing to joke with me later, I'll take it as ... :D

If not...............

I'm really sorry, your words made me moody for the whole of today :(
I know you'll get to know of this post. I'll wait.  ¶ 6:18 PM 0 Comments

  Numb E maths was kinda easy today, but Mr Mok said the results were disastrous. Okay something really weird happened. Mrs Yeo was our invigilator, and she asked who was christians in the class. Yeah, only a handful and I was wondering why she asked for but I didn't bother to raise my hands up. Andrea was trying to be funny and enthu and apparently got herself into trouble. BIG FAT TROUBLE. hahahahah! Guess what, we're a christian school, so before each test, we are supposed to say a prayer, to pray for God's blessing upon us. Since when did we have such practice? But whatever, Andrea being the enthu one, caught the teacher's attention and to add on, she being the monitress, have to take the lead. Yes, weird as it may sound, she did our morning prayer which I have to say it's a good job done since it was kinda impromtu too. :)

!After handing up the paper, I was relieve because the test wasn't as bad as Mr Mok said and it's 15th february, which means there's no more tests until next week, finally~ Today periods were slack, we started off with biologylove and miss poh went through with us chapter on enzymes. Got back bio and physic test today, and to my utmost utmost disappointment, I did badly for both papers. I was damn damn depressed because I slogged my guts out for the 2 tests and I'm totally sure deserve much much more than a b3 and b4. Luckily this paper doesn't really count alot but I'm still lost for words for both tests. Give me a pat on my back back.

Maths was draggy because we were doing on indices, which in my opinion, suck my thumb and is freaking confusing! I dont understand what Mr Mok's talking sometimes and it really makes me impatient and lost because I AM LOST. LIKE HELLO, if I can't understand how to solve simple indices, no matter how slow you advance, I still won't understand. And it's really getting on my nerves. I can stare at the question for very long, then write something, cancel it off, write again and solve halfway, spot a careless mistake and byebye goes all the rest of equations I wrote after the dumb mistake. Worst still, I couldn't finish the CW in class like always and now have extra homework to do at home zzzzzzzzzz

English was spent in the library doing silent reading(slacking) and then recess and SS chem and phew. A school day over. Accompanied Alicia to watch the guy's match at greenview, and then went for church right after. The service was short and sweet and my mood was definitely better after that.

"Please be honest to me but not in a hurtful way."

I wonder if my brother's coming home tonight, I miss him badly and I wanna complain about alot of things I'm unhappy with at school to him! >=(
#)!&$)(!%*)(@)&)#(@&%*)@(#_%&()@!(%&)*#_@)*
oh my, the cat came out again ;)  ¶ 8:48 PM 0 Comments

  Amelia didnt come today, so I had to do lab alone. :( AMELIA WHERE DID YOU GO TO! Physics lab was on the data logger thingy I can't really remember what it is but I didn't do it alone because Wanying came over to do with me :D Okay, Amelia, Fionna, Yiern, I agree with you all that wanying is ___ B-) Lab was easy to do, but boring, and I dislike physic lab out of the 3 labs most.

Then we had bio lab and my beloved bio partner wasnt around again but it wasn't that bad because it was individual work and miss poh was hurrying us like nobody's business. She said we could finish it in 1/2hr but the class took like 1hr ++ to finish and even have to bring it home to tidy up all the test results. I didn't wanna go for bio make up so I stayed all the way and then rush to change. Sorry for making you guys wait! ^^

And SIAN, I have to skip CHEM TEST TODAY. SO SIAN x2, I have to take chem re-test tmr during recess and physic test after school and then go do my I/C after that. SIANZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ I wonder what new formulaes are taught during math today, worst thing was both Andrea and I skipped math and we'll be like some lost idiots trying to catch up. No, not really because I believe Mr Mok wouldn't wanna see us fall. :D I wonder how I'll find both tests tmr. O.o

OH YES, WE WON TAMPINES 5-0 and it was definitely a great match played! Next is PL then it's next to round twoooooo.  ¶ 6:07 PM 0 Comments

  TGFF<333333333333333333333333 I love FRIDAY ALOT.

Dont you think that fridays are come really fast sometimes? The week passed really fast and it's week 8 next week omg. The education system in Singapore is really taxing and everyone looks forward to friday because it's a break from the hectic(OMGZ*@#*)$&*@) school life. I have 3 tests next week, and still counting. Okay, I've gotten used that each week there'll be more than 1 tests or so, and I really hope I'll be able to grasp all the concepts for every subject's topic because I dont like self studying. I've been having late nights every weekdays studying for tests so thank God for friday and the next test is on monday!

Training was totally awesome/fabulous/incredible/fantastic/great/wonderful yesterday. We supported C girls first before having our training and they won again, 4-1. :DDD We had to do physical as the other schools were still using our courts. 100 sit ups and 100 push ups. Okay, I'm really happy at training because I'm able to do 70 sit ups in a row, but wait, screw the time, obviously it's not within a minute or so. Maybe because we haven't used up our energy, because last time I always struggle to do 30. =O That's after training for your info and I deduce that training drained all my energy out. Hahaha, but this really motivated me alot and I'm gonna increase the number of sit ups to 150 and slowly to 200 if possible. I need waist strength desperately. Coach says I take very long to recover after a high ball or smash but after following his instructions to do 100sit ups every training, I'm slowly feeling my power so I can't wait to see the effect it's gonna have on me after having good waist muscles. B-) Pan and I both made a desicion that we're gonna make next year truly our year. But humans are still lazy by nature, so it's discipline to push us on!

After finishing, training officially started and we did drop shots for hell long it seeemed like. It's like 540 after we've done so when we started training at 4 plus i think. Then we played match and did drop-smash-net with bel after that. Training ended at 7 plus because it's a FRiday. But heng there wasn't running after that. Reached home slept 12 hours and woke up at 9 today.

Wanted to do my I/C today but I realised I didnt prepare my parent's NRIC, and I dont know where's my birth cert and I havent took any pass port szie photo. I'm 15 and I'm still so disorganised. I'll get it done on tuesday.

COME SUPPORT BADMINTON GIRLS ON MONDAY AT TAMPINES SECONDARY. WE'RE PLAYING AGAINST TAMPINESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS WITH THE MAN WHOSE SHOUT THRASH 10 OF ME PUT TOGETHER.



First class photo of the year - 3A`07


Flip it over, and you get................................................


Probably by this year's end. I'm starting to love my class and my class reps. I'm gonna like listening to Soon keong talk. And of course Andrea, Stephanie, Siew Chen, eeeh, and I forgot. Why?

Because I think people who wear braces are kewlxzx although I know it seriously hurts alot, but I like the slang that comes along B-)  ¶ 10:43 AM 0 Comments

  On the outside Apparently, many of us couldnt meet up the the standards and expectations we set for ourselves in secondary 3. It's only term 1 and many of us are caught up by many problems and difficulties in understanding many formulas and theories. It sucks to have that feeeling for A math because you know and you know you can only count on yourself because the last batch that took the same syllabus was 10 years before you. Also, having to take test almost everyday is really a huge leap for us. I really hope we'll all pull through.

What's most detestable is having friends who don't even wanna help you or get irritated when you ask for help more than once. I like patient people. That's why I promised myself to teach whoever who ask me anything to the best, until they fully understand it. If only anyone would even ask me. I must excel in something...

Now's zonal and I'm missing quite a lot of lessons. I hate to skip math, because there'll be new formulas taught at every lesson. But I'm lucky to have mr mok, because he do help. I'm confused by anything and everything easily. My foundation for everything isn't really strong I realised. I might collapsed and fall. I need the reassurance. It's really demoralising to know that after living for 15 years, i havent accomplished anything. I just can't seemed to find my gift and talent and it's totally bad to be neither here nor there.

WHAT DOESNT KILL ME MAKES ME STRONGER.
ATTACKED BUT NOT DEFEATED  ¶ 9:15 PM 0 Comments

  Happy birthday brendy and chi koongy!

This weekend had been a fabulous one yet again. :) Brendy came over to my place on friday night to countdown to her bwirthday because she wants me to be the first to wish her! Right brenda? :D

Ok~~ That's such a noo, but she came to finish up someone's present that's in february. ^^ We went right after training to get something, had my dinner and then she went home to bathe and everything. Soorry brenda for the evening before! Pan and I were seriously just kidding lawls roflz hehe hawhawhaw although it seemed very real because both of us are really great actresses! Anyway, it's oveeeer, so dont take it to heart! We love you friend!

We did the present from 11.10pm all the way to 2.10am, and because we had training before we were sooo tired, so this particular person, you better appreciate it okay! :) After finishing, stupid brenda just hop onto my bed and cuddle herself so comfortably in my blanket while I went to the toilet. I wasn't able to play the *find her present* game with her which I took 15mins to find the best place to hide all the presents :( It was so depressing and I really wanted to pull her out of my bed but since it's already her birthday, I decided not to bully her B-) She set her alarm at 7, while mine at 8 and we both woke up at 10 instead(champions!). Then went for breakfast and plan A started. :)

Wenjia, Lee Ying, Louisa, Hongkai and Jonathan came over to surprise her lol. Wenjia make tasty blueberry muffins! Wenjia had to go for guitar, Louisa had to go accompany her grandma to perm her hair so while waiting for them, we chatted. Wenjia came back from guitar and brought along..... R-Y-A-N with her! Brenda, aren't you touched? Ryan came for you! :D Played majong and ryan's super good at it! No, he doesnt play it every Chinese New Year but instead, every weekend with his uncles and aunties! Played till 3.30pm and while the rest set off to Hongkai's place, Brenda and I carried out our plan B. :) We cycled from Tampines all the way to Chikoongy puny's house at Kembangan, as usual! Surprisely, even though I was tired, I managed to conquer that dumb hill! I'm gonna laugh at that hill everytime I drive pass it, it's super tiring alright! Passed her present to her dad because chikoong went to walk her dog(!) and we couldn't stay any longer because brenda was rushing for time! Cycled back and both of us were really e-x-h-u-a-s-t-e-d due to the lack of sleep and the stupid hill.

If you forgotten or never seen before, this is the hill I'm talking about. Don't laugh, because unless you're the one cycling up there, you'd never be able to sympathize with us poor ones :(
It's like de javu, because that hill's really familiar in my mind.
Go click and enlarge to fully analyse the hill.

Cycled back within 30mins from her place to my place (Y) Brenda and I are the best chiong-sters, hahaha. And yes, while waiting for her dad to pick her, we finally managed to play the *find her present* game! I really don't wish to admit that Brenda is smart because she found it within 5mins, so let's just say I'm dumb to hide it there. But brenda, don't gloat, because I gave you hints lah, right! ;D

Her dad came soon after and the day with her was gone. But still, I wish I did make an impact on both Brenda's and Chikoong's birthday, so once again, Happy Birthday you two birthday girls! :D

  ¶ 10:22 AM 0 Comments

  Worn out. This week has been a fully packed week for me. :( I'm tired and totally stressed out, to a certain extent.

More tests coming up next. But I shouldn't complain, I remember we were talking about how we have tests everyday and guorong replied, "we have tests every period, how about that?" Maybe we shouldnt complain. What have I been doing this week? I didn't achieve anything I wanted to for training and it's getting tougher to keep awake during lessons. :( This week has been spent on trainings, supporting the guys match, council and stuffs. I couldn't even be there for the whole game for the guys match because my schedule was too packed, and I'm really mentally and physically tired. I really want a rest day, or maybe week because nothing ever seemed sufficient for me now.

All I wish and pray for is to have a good time management, and a seriously great self-discipline. It really sucks to be alone everywhere you go just because they either have their guys, or your close friends have new friends. It sucks to go home alone.

Maybe I'm just tired.
But I'm really troubled. :'(  ¶ 11:15 PM 0 Comments