sick :( sheesh i lost my taste and even bread taste like dung to me.

woooooo i did nothing constructive today except finishing my deeee and teeee production plan. i don't know how to do that dumb compo and i'm gonna do maths tomorrow.

tomorrow is such a convenient word but it's a silent killer.
good luck to b-ballers on monday. (:  ¶ 10:59 PM 0 Comments

  Chinese Oral I seriously suck at chinese so badly. :(

"哔哔" -- can you please tell me if you read it as "bibi" or "huahua"?
I made a big dang fool out of myself.

"满天过海" -- you hear this almost anywhere, but i totally screw this.

I have the sexiest voice now, and i reckon the teacher didn't understand what i was talking half the time. Lucky for Isabel and Graci for having good teacher. But the more they harp on it, the more shit i feel. :(( Hopefully he'll mark damn leniently.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

English and math.
And i'm running a bloody fever and this stupid nose of mine won't allow me to breathe while sleeping. This is the first time i think this semester suck. I'm losing my appetite every now and then and my concentration span is freak less than 5 minutes.

but hey, at least i'm good at slacking.  ¶ 4:08 PM 0 Comments

  i just had to post this.


Happy birthday grace! :)


This explains the height difference.

Sorry Brenda.   ¶ 3:44 PM 0 Comments

  sigh - Yes, the tests are almost over but the results are not.

Everyone's disappointed in science but the principal, let alone the teachers don't care. Well done Anglican High School. Almost everyone failed SPA test and the highest is 3/6. This is claimed to be our fault because we don't listen in class. It isn't totally true if you don't count those who give trouble.

Ha, this teaches us to be independant because we can't rely too much on people who won't give their all out to help us. But still, I need to thank miss khairiah for at least teaching me science and mr mok to further explain physics to me. I screwed my history, literally, because i did not even answer the question. And mum, it's not my flu and headache to be blamed.

You didn't fail me, I failed you.  ¶ 3:24 PM 0 Comments

  Pan, remember our date tonight! remember to confirm the time with me k.
i think going crazy over un-realistic things sometimes relieves stress!

--

the whole badminton team bought a cake for eugenia's beeeday! it's a big chocolate and cookies cake and everyone got a fair share of it. there were still remainders left. coach was rather suprised. "你们这样浪漫的啊."

stroke with yishan yesterday. i like stroking with her because she's got the strength and she makes me so motivated in some ways. still gotta train on my speeed as what coach says because i'm tooo slow in recovering after smashing. had to run again because it's a friday! this time 5 laps. at least it's one lap lesser!

i chose not to bargain or he would increase the rounds. ran and i didnt walk at all this time!

i'm so motivated in sports now and i like to find different ways to improve on my weakness. i hope my determination pays off and i know all these are stepping stones to later success in my life. if you're in for something, put all your heart to do it; i rather the best, or nothing.

test test test test test test test.
thinking about the tests coming up soon, and the workload that follows up, it really makes me feel like throwing in the towel. my life revolves around studying and training. i've got a big life here.

i hope i do well. because the competition is getting tensed and i guess this isn't really a healthy competition anymore. there are many silent killers popping up after each test. like what mrs koh said, we shouldn't be selfish and self-centered. but well...

anyway, thank you brenda for always being so patient in teaching me math and science. this fight is worthwhile with your help and guidance.

this will be me in a few hours time.  ¶ 9:49 AM 0 Comments

  day i like mr mok lesson (: at least it's so much better than other lessons where we all get drowned by facts. jinglu is lame. mr mok was explaining some math question:

mr mok: imagine that you can capture a drop of oil, then you measure the diameter and find the volume.... blah blah blah.
jinglu: why imagine? use camera lar.
mr mok: the drop would be too fast for the camera to capture lar!
jinglu: then use sony ericson lar! it never miss a shot. ( link back to the advertisement! )

okay, doesn't matter if you don't get the joke.

ohh our dv got 2nd in the competition(: that's a good news. at least we proved ourselves better than those who looked down on us.

science test on friday. actually i've got nothing much to blog about, and if you noticed, more tests coming up soon!  ¶ 9:25 PM 0 Comments

  My lovely brothers (: okay i shall stop complaining.

actually i'm quite blessed to have 2 brothers who will take care of me.

one will lend me his bike.
one will postpone his plans sometimes because he dont want to leave me alone at home.
both give in to me.
both will cook for me when i'm hungry and no one's at home because im afraid of heat.
both talk to me about everything under the sun.
both to teach me in my studies.

although there are unpleasant times, but i'm still happy that you two are my brothers. (:

"i dont quarrel because i believe everyone make mistakes and have a fair chance of being forgiven. "  ¶ 10:56 PM 0 Comments

  badminton selection for DSA students. ive spent my day watching taiwan series, and surprisely, i'm not addicted to it, yet.

selected 10 guys and girls each for dsa. weijie from rss and k.cheuan from tns is super cute. and they play well too considering that they are so small size that you might even think that they are just P1. i think they hardly hit 130. O_o maybe? maybe not. I hope Hui nee and Cheryl comes into Ahs though!

yes stroking with brenda is fun. she gives unpredicted balls and her netting is good. :D yay, badminton finally/hopefully can bring glory to the school again. didnt do much today but at least i've finished dee n tee. i'm half way done science and i just cant get the part of physics where V=RI, 1/reff= 1/r1 + 1/r2 + 1/r3, Reff= R1 + R2 what are all these formulas about?! when do we use it and why sometimes using one is enough but sometimes 3 is needed? this is confusing but trust me, i'm gonna master it.

yay it's 10.20 now.  ¶ 10:13 PM 0 Comments

  stresssss DONT THINK THAT YOU KNOW ME INSIDE OUT, OUTSIDE IN.

SCIENCE IS MAKING ME WANNA QUIT SCHOOL. FREAK FREAK FREAK. I DONT UNDERSTAND 90% OF THE THINGS MISS KAIRIAH IS TEACHING. AND I GUESS HALF THE CLASS IS LOST TOO. MY ELDEST BROTHER COMES BACK LATE AT NIGHT WHEN I'M ABOUT TO SLEEP WHILE MY SECOND BROTHER COMES BACK IN THE LATE EVENING AND STUDIES TILL LATE. THIS YEAR IS IMPORTANT TO BOTH OF THEM AND I DONT WANNA DISRUPT THEIR REVISION. BUT WHO CAN I CONSULT THEN SINCE IT'S ALSO CONSIDERED IMPORTANT FOR ME?

SO MANY THINGS COMING UP.
test when you dont even understand the topic = fail with flying colours
AND I THINK I CANT ADAPT IF WE'RE GONNA HAVE A NEW COACH. ZHOU JIAOLIAN...............................................ZZZ

14/8: Dnt common test (1, 2, 3, 4, 10)
16/8: Ting xie (13 & 16)
18/8: Science class test (8 & 9)
21/8: Geography test (25, 26, 29 - 33, 42, 43)
26/8: Chinese Oral
31/8: Common test/ Chinese paper 1 ??? ??? ???

this is very important. at least for me.  ¶ 10:13 PM 0 Comments

  Cycling day out with Brenda (: Cycling with Brenda can be real fun! :)

She came to my place to get my bike in the morning and we cycled till night. It was really fun to explore the East with her. We cycled from Tampines to Simei and then to Tanah Merah where we decided to visit Sue ean and Grace. They kindly let us in to refill our bottles and to peeee. Okay, I have to totally agree that the Tanah Merah Hill was indeed awesome! Cycling up could have been really tough but the rewards really pays off everything. Tanah Merah was quite small so we cycled a few rounds around it and playing with the hill slopes, then we decided to go Bedok for lunch. Had Sumo house which was quite filling and rather cheap.

And I realised that Brenda has a habit of stepping on my leg whenever we're eating! =x

Our ass really hurt that badly after cycling for so long. We found a new link to go back for Bedok to Tampines. But it was rather deserted and dangerous. Well, we cycled around Tampines estate and then to Pasir ris. Due to the water shortage, we decided to go her house to refill water first before setting off again. Haha, kinda distracted after reaching her house and I did my science paper before we left her house again. Stupid Reff and electricity. =/ Cycled around Pasir and we really went deeep into the west? east? north? south? Either one, where the factories look real classy and there's animal farm down the hill!

It was a real great discovery for us because even Brenda who lives in Pasir ris never came across this road before. We cycled real deep in and there were fewer and fewer souls left. Because it was getting darker and more deserted, we decided to stop and come back again another time. I hope we do, and it'll be afternoon so we wouldn't be that scared! :DDD

Cycling with her is really enjoyable. From Pasir ris, we took the Sun Plaza Park link way back to Tampines. Our Butts were seriously aching. 8pm and I decided to walk her down to my bus stop and wait for bus 39 to come. I love this day because we really enjoyed to the fullest. And, we explored many places. We'll probably cycle to training next time! :D

I LOVE BRENDA SERIOUSLY.  ¶ 10:09 PM 0 Comments

  Happy National day! today was a total waste and i reckon i went to practically everyone's blog.

gonna stay up the whole night and hopefully finish my revision for dnt and science because i'll be out for the whole day with brenda tmr! :) yay my brother actually agreed to lend me his bike!

sue ean, we still have to go for team ice skating one day right! :D

--

charmaine 'tricked' me.

♀♂[Charrr...] ™ *POOF* 1000 paper cranes *POOF* says:
i going to watch NDP
haha..
.zigaa. i'm living for my own goal, not yours. says:
WOW
so good!
♀♂[Charrr...] ™ *POOF* 1000 paper cranes *POOF* says:
TELEVISION
.zigaa. i'm living for my own goal, not yours. says:


luckily she went off to watch the teeeveee or i'll continue to be a fooool. my next sentence was supposed to be "extra tickets"? but luckily she typed faster, for that moment only. =P

hey andrea, take care there =) i hope the song helped to encouraged you a little. :) i'll be there for you, anytime ya? it's okay to cry but rmb to reflect on what went wrong too k? well, wipe your tears now, i'm just a phone call or sms away! cheer up! dont ever regret but well, press on if you think you should, and still, you've gotta follow what your heart tells you to coz no one is in the position to make any decision for you.  ¶ 6:24 PM 0 Comments

  2.4km run 2.4km run is finally over! :)))))))

the first row was hogged by sports players again. but some non sports group ppl managed to squeeze in too. i hate the starting honk. i was running with side by side with geraldine, alicia and cihui were in front of us. we planned to run together but those who can run first will just lead. didn't know what pace to run so i just followed the crowd's one. but as the crowd dispersed, basketballers were way infront. i sooon overtook ppl and ran alone. then i heard cihui's breath followed by geraldine. we 3 ran together side by side for around 200m and cihui sprinted. =/ no more energy. :( came in 7 but i didnt regret. because i guessed the distance between geraldine and i was quite big. thanks for those who cheered, i only rmbed seeing yulin, elisa, vivian, charmaine, yunxuan, matthew and wenmei. i couldnt see the rest because i didnt have my specs on but thanks too :) the distance seemed shorter than what coach usually asks us to run. maybe my stamina did improve. mwuahaha, i feel good after the run but fell dead on the grass patch, groaning.

actually, bacause of this run, i realised that ahs got quite a handful of nice ppl. last year, yuxun waited for zijie and ran with him because zijie had stitches. they were supposed to compete but i guess yuxun was really gentlemanly to wait for his friend, who was in pain. this year, i saw 3three kind souls and 3threee kind deeds. :DDDDDDDDDD

1. Eugenia ran with jiani and encouraged her along the whole run. obviously she could get top10 but she sacrificed for her friend.
2. A sec3 girl was holding and dragging her obese friend who was about to give up. She could have left without her but from what i observed, i guess she ran the whole run without leaving her friend behind.
3. forgotten =/

*brenda and i agrees too that if one of us is to fall down when running, the other would stop and help her up, so that we can continue the run together again. (:

I really admire this kinda ppl as they would sacrificed so much for a friend. :) they make a big difference with such small actions. maybe i should suggest some helpful award. but maybe after having that award, not all will be truthful. haha i like these ppl. they are ppl you can trust and rely on, to whom you can give your all, because you know they would do the same for you, even when the going gets real tough. :D

went to watch lake house after that. then back. i slept for 4hrs straight and my eyes are still burning.

i'm glad you're feeling better coz you told me yesterday to leave you alone when you're feeling down. but well, standing there alone so lost wasnt nice, i really hope i could do something for you besides being there. moreover, there were so many around you. i really hoped that minute passed real fast and you'll be alright soon. everyone's feeling so lost just because they didnt know what to do. well, you'll get back what's meant for you. cheer up.  ¶ 9:23 PM 0 Comments

  Anxiety i'm feeling so anxious. but well, my goal is only to complete 2.4km without walking, not getting top 5. because i dont know if i can do it anot. dont aim too high, coz i'm really afraid to fall hard on my butt. lol good luck zhutinggggggg. top 5 is NOT your goal, your goal is not to start walking. rmb that. i guess i'm feeling better :D

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH muahahahaha top 5? just a reward for my perseverance. if i dont get it, i still feel the sense of accomplishment if i dont start walking. zhuting, please, dont disappoint me. :) muacks

if it's meant to be, it will be. :DDDDD  ¶ 8:39 PM 0 Comments

  2006 FOP! :D I come before you today
And there's just one thing that I want to say
Thank you lord Thank you lord

For all you've given to me
For all the blessings that I cannot see
Thank you lord Thank you lord

**With a grateful heart
With a song of praise
With an outstretch arm I will bless your name
Thank you lord
I just wanna thank you lord
Thank you lord
I just wanna thank you lord
Thank you lord

For all you've done in my life
You took my darkness and gave me your light
Thank you lord Thank you lord

You took my sin and my shame
You took my sickness and healed all my pain
Thank you lord Thank you lord

Song by: Don Moen
Title: Thank you lord

Don Moen is seriously the best worship leader. His voice makes my heart melts and his songs makes me so captivated in His presence. I recommend all to hear this song! I'm so gonna get his album.

I DIDNT SEE YOU SUE EAN! but i guess yesterday totally rocked so much =) CCC Worship band was great tooo.
random: i think pink pather's main lead is from italy.

Went with alicia and her sister. supposed to meet at 4 but she took the earlier train. so when she boarded it, i was still under the mrt track. i literally sprinted there and i made it for the train. 1min: boonlay. but i was perspiring like mad and the weather was so humid. Stop at kallang bought mac and then took bus 11 down to indoor stadium. the queue is long and we got ourselves good seats for being there an hour early. FOP STARTED AND WOOOO it's just so great to see 100 over churches gathering to praise and worship god. :) yesterday was their 20th anniversary and it was my first time there.

i seriously think all should hear don moen's song. especially thank you lord. =) yesterday event was so fruitful. =)))))) i wonder how is it today at indoor stadium 11-2pm. zzzz :(  ¶ 1:20 PM 0 Comments

  exams blues exams are coming in 9 weeks time and training is gonna stop in 7 weeks time!

gotta go tamp sports hall to train again as the hall is used for o lvls oral. zzz

i dislike going there because there's only 4 pathetic courts with at least 24 ppl training.
i dislike going there because we have to rush down after school to be there on time.
i dislike going there because there's a big stadium and coach always ask us to run after training.

i guess it'll be worst next time so no use complaining.


going for FOP later! ^^ maybe i'll get to see alicia and sue ean there! :D  ¶ 1:42 PM 0 Comments

  2.4km run? rubbish belongs in the rubbish bin
so pick it up and throw it in

sing it.

i had a good day at school. the napfa test thing was a false alarm. i was so prepared for it when they said there wasnt one in the first place. and i wonder how did this lousy information came about in the first place. nvm, think of its advantages, now i have more time to train on my freaking incline pull ups. it was never my forte and forever wont be.

i'm not for the 2.4km run rackey anymore. guessed they had me replaced but no one told me until i found out about it myself today. thanks charmaine and sorry for the trouble! linked way back to morning when meixuan told me she got herself replaced. so i was considering whether i should do that too. then i asked charmaine to replace me too but she was already in, and she helped me find another one. i told tab and then she replied that i was not in already. so the replacement was not neeeded. so yay!

but actually the tension is still there. well, i'm also getting irritated by myself. now i can get to run with the crowd, another set of worries come. sheesssh. i feel so insecure and i really wanna do well. i think the netballers worked hard for it but to me, actually, we, or i've got lots more to buck up on. actually when coach ask me to run, i do it half-heartedly. :(
well i still admire nat for being able to keep the perfect record for being first 4 years straight.

"badminton had always have a good record for running."
"only when natalia was still here."

can we keep the fire burning?  ¶ 7:58 PM 0 Comments

  in life, there are so many things that one can be disappointed with. so what should we do when faced with one? should we ignore it and just carry on with life or try doing sth about it which sometimes might make the situation worst?

ha, lessons were per normal and the whole class atmosphere was dead. everyone was tired. history was really draggy but i think singapore's history is interesting. chinese was okay but our group is lagging behind like __________. sigh, i dont like the feeling of lagging behind, but it's like no matter how hard i try, there's always someone who's trying harder than me. this time, i can't really do much because it's a group. well, just see how it goes.

training wasn't much a training. we didn't do much and sec 2s were not focused on again. i understand why well. recap on my match with junrong last friday:
it was a total thrash. although it wasn't shown too obviously, i can still tell that he's giving in to me alot. a 15year old guy, actually can't thrash a sec 2 beginner girl like me? well, that's kinda impossible. based on his skills, i guess he could have ended the match in about 5mins. but the match lasted around 20mins, and it wasn't a thrash. i've got 18, and 17 which made me clearer that he's giving in alot. come to think, he's quite nice not to own me in a few strokes. i guess not many people would do that. it made me grateful to him for not disgracing me and hurting my pride but now i've got a new worry. to or not to be in team. or maybe, singles isn't really my cut.

when one thing goes wrong, the rest follows. that's why i can't help feeling so moody at some parts of the day. zzzz so many things to get disappointed with but why aren't we glad when sometimes, somethings goes well? greed.  ¶ 7:37 PM 0 Comments

  FUCK YOU, ____
I HATE BACKSTABBERS.
and
i believe in retribution.

why should i lose my cool about this?  ¶ 7:09 PM 0 Comments

  random: HI PANDORA!! (: muahahah

today's lesson was slack. i just realised that actually i'm surrounded by nice ppl who's willing to help me with my dnt! pan managed to explain a real complex(to me) concept to me and she agreed to help me if i continues to have any doubts! :D with her around, i managed to come up with 2 new ideas, and really grasp the concept of cams. muahahaha. i'm so glad that there's someone who can actually successfully explain something to a very uncertain/stress/doubtful girl and make her understand so well. thanks pan and graci! :D

just went for haircut, touch up on my history. :)

i'm so sad that i lost my two dnt designs! come back please.
"redraw lar."
to someone who really dislike drawing and have no talent in art, even drawing lines is a torture for me. man who can tell me what to research for dee and tee? pan pan pan pan pan pan pan pan pan!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

BRENDA I'M WAITING FOR YOU.

-_________- i'm in for the standing for 2.4km run. wtf. )_(@!^$(@)!*( another year not able to run with the crowd. DAM I HATE THIS ARRANGEMENT. F--- school. :'(  ¶ 6:31 PM 0 Comments