pray for me.. days had passed so quickly and in the blink of eyes, it will be sports day tomorrow.. WHICH i dunno whether i shud be happy or sad.. i really wanna take part in running and bring glory to God, badminton and myself.. but look at my condition.. can i run?? i can't even walk properly lar! i feel the slope, yet i am preservering! i don't know if i had made the right chioce to take the risk and run tomorrow. i may agrevate the injury and cause me not to be able to play anymore.. however, i am gonna be stubborn and try tmr! i am sorry for this desicion.. but if u were in my situation, i believe u would do this too.. nevertheless, today, i have a testimony to share..
As i just injured my knee on monday. I have been using crutches since.. and itz only last night is when i felt really scared.. REALLY..i prayed to God for my speedy recover of my knees and asked if it was alright to take part in the competition.. i felt so cold in the room and i felt that God was no longer by my side.. i am all alone.. i prayed to God in hope for an answer but there was only silence.. I felt so lost and cried in the process for quite a long time.. i was seeking an answer from him.. but there was no reply.. totally no.. i felt so lost as i thought my father above had abandoned me.. i was starting to lost faith in myself and in God.. i really din know wad to do.. i was metally unstable.. then i went online and chatted wif jospephine.. she encouraged me and confirmed my trust that God will not abandon me.. she told me that even a little faith can move mountains.. my faith wasn't replenish yet.. but later at night, God gave me an answer.. he told me to hold on..
Matthews 12:20
a bruised reed he will not break, and a smouldering wick he will not snuff out, till he leads justice to victory..
He told me to hold on! he will not forsake me! even when i am taking the competition, he will be by my side and see me through each step i take.. he will see me through SAFELY.. and i will trust God..
so today, i took out my bandage and put away my crutches and started walking on both legs.. i went to sch without it.. and it was difficult.. i was still limping.. and yea.. i took very long to climb up the flight of stairs.. but only after some time.. i felt ok.. i felt God's healing hands on me.. and although i got smacked on my knee 4 times today, god has blessed me a good knee and that the knee cap did not went out of place.. i really felt much better and b4 i knew, i was WALKING! walking ok.. not limping.. isn't it great?! but now i still gotta face the obstacle of running my relays.. hopefully i can take part in all.. My seniors are suppose to take my place but they aren't very willing.. so i tink i better be responsible and take wadeva i can and not put them to the spot.. oh well.. i will see my conditions tomorrow.. HOPEFULLY i can.. yupps..  ¶ 6:35 PM 0 Comments

  i found u guys After my knee incident, i really felt warmly touched by all my friends out there.. i really wanna thank all of u guys.. u all have consistently kept me in your prayers.. so have i consistently prayed.. and i am sure God will answer it and that my knee will recover in no time by His healing hands.. And will recover fast enough to take part in the sports day THIS YEAR. I really wanna run for it! even though i may not get the first place, at least i tried my best and i wun feel regretful. SO PLEASE LET ME TAKE PART!

And yes, I sincerely wanna thank Natalia.. She is the one that is REALLY by my side in times of trouble.. She has been praying for me all the time and i am sure of that. Even one tuesday, when i was not in sch, she actually came to my class and call a few friends to pray for me.. i feel really touched. VERY. and when my knee break down on me, she was by my side too.. she held me tight and gave me an assurance that God, all my friends and her are by my side, all for me.. She continuosly prayed for me and actually went to the hospital shortly after i was admitted there.. She could not come into the hospital as i was in the A&E.. She called me from outside and asked about me.. Who would go to this extend just to know how i fared? only she.. mayb others will just wait until i come out den ask.. but she did not.. she was so worried for me.. and i felt so warm at my heart.. den the nurses saw us so pathetic so she let natalia and phildia, one at a time to come in.. this can even touched the nurses, wadz more me? What natalia did was really very warm to the heart and i really appreciated it alot.. Even today, she was by my side whenever she could. morning, when i was having difficulty up the flight of stairs, she was all the while beside me, supporting me each step i take. it was so late and yet she still did not care and perservere to see me up! She even skipped her dental appointment just for me. wow! =D
next is phildia, she was oso very anxious about me.. she followed natalia to the hospital too.. and she was there praying for me too.. i am so glad to have such caring seniors and friends..
louisa and leeying went to the hospital too.. well, not to forget all the other ppl who keep me in their prayers and was asking about me... people like Natalia, pandora, leeying, josephine, brother kenneth, sue-ean, wen mei, ether, sin yee etc..thanks for keeping me in ur prayer! prayers do work wonders! and i hope i will be the next miricle! =D
oh well, it will be 2 more days to sports day and i REALLY do hope that i can take part in the competitions and bring glory to God.. i will continue to pray and hope i can touched the heavens and God's healing hands will be placed on me.. i really wanna recover fast enough! please! let all pass now.. i will try not going on crutches tmr and HOPEFULLY, i will not limped anymore.. =D i shall continue to praise the lord and pray for my recovery!! help me too! God bless!  ¶ 6:44 PM 0 Comments

  sad things Days are so so busy that I hardly got the time to sit and think of the moments that have gone. All that I could remember or still feel is the bitterness of things that did not sail smoothly. I sat and think through. In fact these are the things that I should just let them be the past and move on without having to be affected. Moments are to be cherished with the happiest things I can experienced. Somehow in these happiest things, they just kept reminding me of the not so nice.
Sometimes i just wonder is God making a fool out of me? Everything seems to be settling down, but bad things always have to happen. Just like my knee, it was alright on HEATS day. Then out of the moment, when EVERYTHING, EVERYTHING like sports day, napha and ranking are about to come, my knee just break down. JUST BREAK DOWN without giving me a slightest warning. How am i gonna take it?! It not that i am SO fit to take this set back. I may seem bubbly, cheerful in front of my friends, but deep down in my heart, do anyone know what i am thinking? Does anyone EVEN care and just give me a sweet and heart-warming concern? NO-ONE. no one that i can think of. Just because i put a smile on my face, everyone thinks that i am alright. Looks are decieving. But feelings are more deceiving. I hide my feelings in order not to affect anyone to be sad with me. After all, i still think that one sad is better than all sad. It's only God that i seek in times of trouble, in times of need. He is the one that will be by my side. He is the one that set THESE kind of life of me.
Is this a test for me? Even if it is, don't u tink that i have too many testes? one after other? i seemed to have more downs than ups. Where as my friends are all well settled down. Why then do I have to go through these things on the darker side and they on the brighter side. I start to wonder what wrongs have i done to deserve this kind of life. Alright, i admit that one's life cannot be always smooth sailing. There must be bad to have good. But why are others life more smooth sailing den mine? How long do i have to perservere to reach MY end? i am tired already. one obstacle after another. I know that God has a purpose for me. But HOW am i gonna know my purpose? I keep going on the search to find the purpose God has for me. I do have a purpose. I wasn't born by chance or accident. God planned the birth of me. God planned the route for me. and I tried very hard in the search for MY purpose, yet i failed. I did not give up. Yet TRY again and again and again. Failures after another. Learning more mistakes that aren't suppose to be repeated again.
Maybe this a also a chance to see who are my good friends, thoses that will stay by my side in times of need. I thank you all here. like natalia, phildia, louisa, leeying, miss tan, ether, wen mei, isabel, pandora, josephine and not to be forgotten, my mummy! i really felt the love in within u guys. Yet, good things always have to be put to an end and let bad things overpower it. You guys can't possibly be with me all the time. i gotta stand up and Be On My Own. Yes, i am grateful to go through these hardships to become who i am today. Yet, i REALLY wonder how long more do i need to go on in order to reached the destination i wished and longed for. Why me? Though each of us take a different path in life, have different things in life, go through different hardships to grow, but why must all hard ones come on me from the tender age of 13? Why are others around me sailing through without much hardship and tough decisions to make? Will they take a rough road later on in their lives? People will again try to be optimistic, "Oh come on, and everyone has a story to tell…" Mine will be way far off too many to tell and to be told. Live has to go on though, so I will take it one at a time, live the best out of it. Nobody will sympathise with you even if you feel sorry for yourself.   ¶ 11:31 AM 0 Comments

  on fire. hey.. i just read josephine's blog.. i am so fansinated at how strong she is for God.. and yea.. she is on fire for God! hallelujah! both of us have decided to work hand in hand to preached the gospel to everyone so i tink i shud do my part now too! share something wif u guys? hmm.. i love this word of God alot!! although i heard it LONG AGO..
well.. do u noe wadz the meaning of Psalm? it means praise!! Praise is always vocal, loud. Praise is a sacrifice, itz not always easy..*praise is sth to give God despite our situation from our heart and flesh.God looks for the praise when u are going thru difficulties; not praise in good situation-Praise when u least feel like praising. thatz the praise God is looking for.
Faith- I see my problems and i see You, i CHOOSE YOU.Everytime you offer praise, God will change a place of desolation to a place of wonder and hope.God is my portion.God is wad i choose everyday.I will bless the Lord at all times!His name shall constantly be on my lips. Hope u guys understand wad i rote and will put it to action!
-PRAISE GOD when u least feel like praising!
and yea, Every1 of u christians wans God to be ur shepherd am i rite? yar, so u muz be a sheep! not a goat! a sheep follows, a goat wanders.. Sheeps move in flocks, goats are loners... so be a sheep and follow God! A sheep tat follows and surrender..*the presence of God heals and restores a damage soul...God will help u... when he sees a smouldering fire, he wouldnt snuff it out.. he will try his best to keep the fire going and burning till it is a big fire.. he wun tink tt "this is a small and useless fire" and blow it out, instead he will try to keep the fire burning.. so yea.. PRAISE THE LORD!   ¶ 8:08 PM 0 Comments

  pills suck OH MAN. eating pills is a toture.. !! my nicest record.. taking 35 mins to swallow one pathetic pill!! and is like.. i got 8 pills to eat per day?! aww crap!! i dun like pills.. and i HAVE difficulties eating them!!
i really tink that my right knee is gonna break down soon.. aww..
tmr's match.. how i wish today never end.. den i will have enuf time to rest!! tmr is the lining up.. looks like nth i do can change the fact that i am gonna be the LAST among the C galx!! ='(
BUT STILL,
i KNOW God has a purpose for me.
and my purpose is calling out to me!!  ¶ 7:36 PM 0 Comments

  argh hello. i am back. again.
sighh. i OFFICIALLY sprained my knee. =(
went to the doctor today. den was late for the sc meeting. went at around 12. oh man. i go dere try on the shirts only den come back. waste time. -.-
but nvm. hmm.. i cant play sports lo. the doctor say dun strain ur knee. or else worsen den u DUN need play sports le.. den i gotta eat like 8 pills per day?! aww crap. i dunno how to eat pills de lor.. den one day eat so many. dun die of the pain die of the pills ar! argh.. den my sports day, line up and napha can dun needa go le.. dun needa tink of winning.. but i tink i wanna play.. but i dunno.. even if run not fast den lose how.. aiya.. dunno lar..
i must try not to climb the stairs too much.. haix.. keep the times of climbing stairs less.. so that i wun spoil my right knee.. crap again.. but i TINK my right knee abit spoil le.. coz after injuring my left one i have been using my right one more often! grrr.. i put all my body weight on the right one, climb stairs on the right one blah blah.. coz my left one just dun have the strength! argh! i dunno lar.. looks like the line up on monday gotta be postpone.. oh no.. i will be the last among the sec1 gals.. wad crap la!
den tmr cant go swimming.. coz they put medicine and bandage my knee..so gotta leave it dere for 3 days.. that means monday night take out.. argh..
BUT,
God has a purpose for me! =D  ¶ 10:10 PM 0 Comments

  my knee again i am back for the news about my knee.. ='(
i am so sad lar.. i sprained my left knee.. =(
and pandora doesnt believes it! who says those who wear guards den is REALLY injured knees?! she doesnt trust me.. argh..
i am so confused.. i am not free this weekend! sat got the sc first meeting and of coz i dun wanna miss it.. den sunday i got swimming! and itz like.. WOW.. how am i gonna see a doctor?! monday after sch go.. den wad bout the line up on mondaY?! i really dunno! i am DESPERATELY looking for sum1 to tell me wad to do!
confused..  ¶ 9:45 PM 0 Comments

  my knee awww man.. my knee hurts BIG time!! can summone like help me?! dun ask me to go doctor, coz i dun wanna go.. i dunno lar.. i am in dilemma.. !!! shud i go? wad if the doctor say i cannot play sports for 1 month?! den wad about the upcoming napha, sports day and LINE UP?!?!??! OMG!! i dunno! i am going church tmr.. hope God could heal me!! really!! i needa get well! after that injured nvm.. really! PRAY for me pleasE!!  ¶ 6:36 PM 0 Comments

  Pan and me! i had great fun today with pan!! =D didnt we darling?
hmm.. we were suppose to study! but in the end.. =X i read only like 2 pages of the book and she none. haha.. but we did enjoy ourselves! we were taking pictures and playing a fool.. hmm.. it was around 5plus 6 that we sat down for a nice little chat.. hmmm.. was it even LITTLE?! haha.. lasted until 8.. den she gotta go back.. so we went back.. hmmm.. we did many tings man! and yupps.. i dun wanna rite about it! =D i am tired rmb?? hahha.. GOD BLESS.. i got alot of homework to finish!!
and to natalia, i am sry.. i din mean to hurt u by saying "waste of time". itz just that i can't find an appropriate word. my vocab sucks yea. sry. REALLY. after that, this afternoon, i remembered what bk said. that God is not a choice. We shudn't put studies above him. HE is always the FIRST. and none other things can take HIS place. i am sorry.   ¶ 8:53 PM 0 Comments

  PISSED today training was FUN! yea man, totally enjoyed myself! din really learn any new strokes.. but my confidence lvl has DEFINATELY gone up! *thanks chi koong!* yupps.. ONCE AGAIN, like before.. i had to play match with her AGAIN.. i din't win. but at least i feel more confident! we played two sets, 9-11, 8-11. the score was quite close. but i lost to her at the SAME stroke twice! she always kill me with her cross netting.. i tot it would not cross but it did! and i lost. =( boo! nvm.. at least i had like experience..
Now, i needa brush up on my netting! i can control the back half court but not the front.. =( she gimme front i give her back. so she knows my style and always stay at the back. so never really run. yar.. i know that too.. so i MUST quickly master netting! but for the second set, at leasst i know her weak point.. so i gave her left court and right court, and made her run!.. oops. =X sry chi koong for ur indigestion x)
After training, went east point to find louisa.. haha.. helped her mum yo sell bags.. =)) went back at 11 plus.. yuppps.. tired.. THOSE reading, go east point to buy bags!! haha..  ¶ 1:08 AM 0 Comments

  TRAIININGG OMG, i was very pissed during training today. so there isnt anything much to blog about. dun ask me why i am pissed. thanks.
anyway, the mrt BROKE down while we were on our way to school! woot! so cool lo.. den after tt we were like LATE for training?! 3 of us, my badminton darlings.. den on the way up to sch, me and pandora were like making a fool out of brenda. haha. u shud have seen her reaction! we were enjoying ourselves to the fullest! =D
to brenda: actually we din wanted to run up. =) there is another ting we wanted to do.. haha.. but i dun wanna tell u. =PpP
i woke up at 12.20 today!! slpt at 3 last night.. was rushing thru my homework!! actually i wasnt tired last night.. can continue to do.. but the stupid msn go sign me out den cannot sign in.. den no one to tok to mah.. so i very bored.. go slp.. haha..
aiya.. i wanna do my homework le.. cyaz! god bless =D  ¶ 8:55 PM 0 Comments

  today yoyoyo.. haha.. today went training.. was abit sick in the morning.. too sick to wake up.. but i still woke up and went to sch.. in sch, i feel quite ok le.. looks like my frens have a great impact on me! with them, i feel so GOOD!
and yea.. i went to sch after MUCH consideration.. and the coach never even appreciate it! still scold me! grrr.. sick and i went coz i din wanted to spoil my nice record of attendance. DEN spent $5.70 on the taxi fare. my allowance littat gone le. ANDTHECOACHNEVERFEELTOUCHEDYETSTILLSCOLDME!
-breathes in and out.
grrr.. kk, dun spoil my day coz of him! anyway, PANDORA treated me to breakfast. =X thanks. too broke le. den after training we went to eat at mac. and when she eating, she... *oops* she dun wan me to blog about it. i respect her decision.. hahahaha.. ask her if u wan. laugh ur head off! haha.. den we sat dere and chat. so many tings to tok about! =D *ahem* yea pan? x)
kk, time to go.. my brother jus got their new bed!! so cool!! must go check it out. haha.. love u guys! *muackssssss*  ¶ 7:07 PM 0 Comments

  swimming Yoz. i am still sick. degrees 39.8 last night. sighh. my resistance towards sickness is lousy. always littat one. go chalet and stay over den will get sick.. den today went swimming.. maureen not wif me =( she went hong kong. den i went wif her cousins.. was fun. and tiring. but cool. i tink my fever shud have subside.. well, i hope so.
i gonna paint the master bedroom later. i WAS going to do that. but my brother juz came back from his chalet and is slping in the room. so i guessed the painting will be postponed. since not painting, wanted to go church today coz ytd cant, but who knows both parents at home..so.. nvm lor.. i gotta recover soon! i wanna go training de lor.. later so long never play lag how? i dun wanna deprove. =( i so lan le deprove summore become wad?! lol. guys reading, pray for me. thanks.  ¶ 1:57 PM 0 Comments

  CHALET! I am sick! so happy! surrely very happy lor. sick leh. once in a life time. OMG, fascinated sia. -.- lol. k lar, don't be OVER-sarcastic. some of you not close to me cannot take it. actually it was quite happy. AT the chalet. i miss the chalet. and the people dere. how i wish the chalet never ends. oh my, if really never end i gonna die of HIGH fever. =X i wasted the whole thursday afternoon doing like NOTHING except SLEEPING?! sighh. can't blame me. i WAS and AM sick. luckily i got my darling pandora wif me.. and not to forget leeying and edmund too. haha. but pandora was the one by my side when i was sick. thanks pan! =D i from high fever bcome slight and now, i-dunno-what fever. got a bad sore throat.
on friday was cool, woke up early. haha.went training and i showed attitude. ok.. wasnt attitude. but just that i din't have the mood to talk and crap. sighh. don't know what's wrong with me. i suddenly don't like crowds. i love to be alone all of the sudden. in my own world, tinking of my own things. and mayb someone who wants to join me in my fairytale. yea, like thursday night. people were crapping outside. but i SUDDENLY just don't feel like joining in their conversation. i went to the room. MYSELF. only me. it was cool. i was in my fairytale. i was deep in thoughts. tinking of MY things. totally immune to the noise outside. looks like i have changed. truly. u will know the quiet me next time. but i will be BORING. see first. i will change next semester. den u tell me which of me u prefer. yea? quiet or noisy.
after training, i went to a survey. was fun. got $$.. =D haha.. was almost late. LUCKILY. saw pandora AGAIN on the train. i knew i would. itz fate working on us. =D
oh man, i got a wedding dinner to attend later. gotta wear nice and eat nice food. crap. how in the world am i gonna enjoy the food when i am sick?! the food will be tasteless! like DUH. nvm, still gotta attend. haix. my cousins not going. miss them so much.
oh man, not going church today. i need the healing from God. sighh. i wanna recover! i got LOTS OF homework to do! oh man. i started on NOTHING. please don't let me get sick.
bless you guys! =D  ¶ 1:20 PM 0 Comments

  miss me? yoz.. so long never post le!! got miss me? hahax.. nvmm.. wanted to post ytd den my bro and his frens came den wanted to use so i cant post.. =X hmm.. i was busy these few days.. busy training! hahax.. yesterday was fun.. i woke up late! haha.. woke up at 830 when my training was at like 9?! hahax.. but i managed to cheong to sch lar..but still late.. hahax.. den my eyes all SWOLLEN.. got eye bags.. haix.. not enuf slp jiu shi littat lor.. sad sia.. dam ugly.. X) den the whole day keep asking pandora my eyes how le? hahax. den after training went back... sian.x..x... went out wif louisa.. i mean went out den went to her hse.. oh man! we had fun at her place! hahax.. spitting seeds was so fun eh lulu? wahahaha.=X den today is a break away.. no training.. hmmm... gonna go louisa hse later to play majong! hahax.. so long never play.. dunno will lose anot.. hahax.. hmm.. is abt time i gtg... dun miss me too much! muacks!
tinGz...  ¶ 12:28 PM 0 Comments

  Introduction Friends normally make up a big part of our lives. Who then do you consider friends? Some friends were part of my life, they share my innermost thoughts and personal life. Many were true, they stayed by me, stand by me and saw me through many of my ups and downs. One or two saw me through but they were there on the surface. Just to be in the current picture and probably stay as others were there for me.
Yes.. as u all noe.. i am a noisy girl! so i need frens to play along me rite?? haha.. frens are VERY important to me! without them, life would be so boring. Well, i am the president of the Fully retarded club! wif my vice president Pandora! She is the one that always pairing up wif me to act retard! yupps.. enjoyed time wif her during training! =)) [ we act to entertain! ] =)) hmm.. i enjoy every moment wif frens and always crapping to add COLOURS to thier lives.. and i am from badminton!! my partner is Isabel! i play wif Brendaa and Pandora too! i love them=)) hmm.. i LOVE all of my frens! but i am more close to LuLu, pandora, brenda, wenjia and Alicia!! well, I must and will remember to have self-control and to really reflect on who are the real friends around me.
tinGz..=))  ¶ 8:28 PM 0 Comments

  Blog done! Hee!!! =)) now my blog is done!! yeah! hahaha.. anyway.. yupps.. do add comments about my blog yeah? =D and rite.. i would like to credit *Brenda* for helping me!! =)) brendaa, saw ur BIG name? hahax.. honoured mah? hmmm.. yupps.. do enjoy my blog ok! =)) God bless. =)
tinGz..  ¶ 9:20 PM 0 Comments