Bye people! I'll be back on 3rd, while Brenda on the 4th! When I'm back you'll probably see a super dark me, then period of skin-peeling, and then a fair me again. LOL. I'll be skipping a total of 8 trainings this dec holidays, but somehow I don't feel anything. I don't know how to feel, so I'm feeling neutral. Hopefully all my troubles will be blown away by the sea breeze and endless laughter from young ones. Don't miss me, and your tags to tell me you miss/love me will be much appreciated. :) Take care loads earthlings!

Thanks Xinling, Andrea, Gina, Natalia for helping me out with the cheers. :D  ¶ 4:51 PM 0 Comments

  Bad mood, everything's bad. Can't get to sleep. Hmmmmmm Brenda's probably on the plane now. O_O

Just cleared everything on my table and in my room, now i've got 2 cartons of lower sec books. Last call for my books! Well, I dont think anyone will need it, so recycle bin, there it'll go! Ha, I've spent 2 nights cleaning up and yes, I haven't done my homework. Man, can I stop procrastinating, I'll be gone on 29-3, and then just very packed up this dec holidays, so ahhhh. Why did I get myself into so many shit. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

I'm seriously starting to hate training(noun) now. Not because of training(verb) but because I hate ___. Argh, what's the use of complaining? I dont know either. Just let me be since I'm in a bad mood because of this for very long. I hate this so much that I find no difference or maybe better if I could transfer back to Coach Wee. Anyway Isabel's doing fine without me, and our chemistry is dying down. Feel at lost, confused, but what can I do? Have coach forgotton about us, his plans for us? Or has he only forgotten me? And since he always pair Isabel up with another senior, why don't he just let me out instead of making me bear such humiliation of him forgetting me. This is his-so-called-training when you're in team, I'd rather train at Coach Wee's. His attitude towards me is really making me feel inferior, insignificant, at the brink of giving up..

I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate everything. I'm in a super foul mood, I'm cynical of everything around me. Disappointed not because of what I've got, but what I expect to get.
Disappointment-->bitterness-->resentment
What a vicious cycle.

This is real exhuasting...

At this point of time, it's hard for me to believe that it's God's wonderful plan for me. Well, I'll just have to bear with it, anyway, I'll grow stronger once it's over!

Pouring out this treasure you gave,
In your promises our hearts turn brave.

C'mon, I don't wanna give up like that. dont make me do so please. ='(  ¶ 2:50 AM 0 Comments

  The bbq was alright considering the facts that there were 200 satays and 50 chicken wings, there was the break water, and there was the beach. And Alicia, Leeying and Cihui skipped their blaze training for us ;D

Reached there late cause of the friendly match that ended at 530 at Chinese Garden Station. Sorry Pan! Well, the guys played well and I only played a doubles match with Isabel. Let me digress a little.

Coach once told me that Isabel and I can't go up to B div as a double cause we haven't met the B div criteria, and if we were to be together, the chances of us winning is 30%. So he's trying to pair us each up with a senior so that we can go up as a double if possible. But for the past two friendlys, he didn't pair any of us up with our seniors ... He's got a 2 perfect sec 3 pairs now so he's leaving us out. I never knew the feeling suck so much, but since praying silently that he'll notice the two pathetic ones doesnt even help, I dont think blogging here helps much either, since he can't really understand english well. Thanks for crushing my ego, and thanks for telling me the hurtful truth. I told you negative pressure doesn't work on me, but this shall not be my excuse. Please God, give me the strength to continue training my 101%. :( I can't be that much of a weakling =/

Back to the topic, the trip from west to east was an hour and having to buy charcoal, wait for the bus, find our way there, we(Bel pan &I) reached there at 8 plus. Food weren't ready cause we've got the most crucial thing(charcoal!). Went to the break water to talk about our Sec 1 lives and reminisce the past, then we took turns to barbecue the foooood! x) Finally saw Netballers, TT guys after a long time! :D Ryan and Raymond has shot up and now Ryan is taller than me! Goodness! =O Ate quite alot of satays, then Yicheng and I, who initially wanted to build sand castles ended up building dinosaur dung, heart, bones, and monkey! Should have taken pictures, but didn't anyway. This gathering was nice, like how beautiful the moon is tonight!

I reached home before midnight and it wouldn't have been possible without Andrea's daddy lift! Thanks Uncle! He's nice alright! He bought us drinks and sent zigaa back home safe and sound. :)

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Open house today and I overslept. I had less than 5hours of sleep last night and keep snoozing my phone. But still managed to reach school by 7.30 and we did ushering and all. Legs were sore and full of blisters after a few rounds in schoool. So Vivian and I decided to hide in the council room to avoid any more inquisitive parents. =X Mei xuan got the job after wanting to get into the main hall where the air con is strong(and also many parents are there), haha!

Argh, sorry for the abrupt ending but I dont feel like blogging anymore.
God bless!  ¶ 9:32 PM 0 Comments

  ATTENTION:

WHO IS A SUSCRIBER OF M1 PLEASE TELL ME!

I've got 3 people I can call free but they must be from M1, alicia is one of them :DD So we can talk all day all night, and can even take turns to call each other! Hahahah, BUT sad thing is, the other party got to be a suscriber of M1. Isabel, Grace, Andrea, Brenda, Natalia, ... are all either singtel or starhub. PAN! What's yours?!??!! :DD

I've got two more empty space. Since I can fill it up another time, I shan't bother so much yet. At least Alicia and I can still talk for long! :DDDDDD Bwahaaha.

Friendly match at Fu hua later, it's 11.30 now, and I haven't gotten ready. So see ya peeps! DO remember to sms me if you're a suscriber of m1! :D  ¶ 11:32 AM 0 Comments

  homework kills! Gooodness gracious! I just realised that it's end november and I haven't started on any homework! The date seriously didn't ring a bell that I have many assignments to complete. And it's only now that I'm starting to feel the urgency! Oh no nono no no..

And worst still, I'll have sailing camp, followed by bonding camp, then followed by overseas, then training camp, then orientation camp! Save me, I'm drowning! Hopefully I'll be able to finish something, so I better start NOW. zzz :( Decemeber is a busy period, totally packed up so I better spent my time wisely and stop watching korean/taiwan dramas! (Except maybe if Gino's acting in it! ^^) Hahaha, I've found my new love which is Hongkong dramas 'cause their storyline is soo0o0o much nicer, and it's so much more realistic than the stereotype "true love" =X

Well well, tonight's tv program is gonna be good. :DD Daren and Jeremy are in a team so watch out for them! Today's the release of PSLE results. I wonder how did Ariel, Amanda, Nicholas , Eleanor, ... .... fare. O_O And tomorrow is seemingly the last day of my brother's As! kudos! Today's friendly with ANG mo kio(ANG li can) was alright, but tomorrow's with Fuhua! Played with them before but this time got sec 4s! And we've gotta go there ourselves to Chinese Garden. GO Go go.

PS to pan: Have you gotten the phone? :)  ¶ 2:07 PM 0 Comments

  - Happy birthday San!

Training was usual yesterday. Went swimming after that, there were lightning&thunder at 5pm when we just arrived, and changed. Just our luck we thought, but since going back home doesn't seemed the best option, Brenda suggested we swam at least 5laps. So we did, and the sky was greyish black, like the world's about to end. Lightnings were everywhere and I was praying it doesn't hit the water or about 10 people would have died together. It started raining dogs and cats and we were shoo-ed out for safety reasons. So in the end, we managed to swim 20laps, and omg, I actually managed to bully brenda in the pool? haha! We played 'hide and seek' with the goggles and then diving to grab brenda's leggy leg! HAHA. Had my fun yesterday at the pool since training was . for me.

Argh, I better get that dumb attitude off or I'll be the one regretting. Sometimes I wonder, "do everyone go through the same feelings and thoughts as me in this situation?" Sometimes I really wonder.. =/ Well, part and parcel of life, get over with it, the world isn't gonna change because I felt lousy today. Cheer up! Tomorrow's gonna be a better day? :DDDDDD  ¶ 11:50 AM 0 Comments

  Long post, lovely day. Brenda came over at 1230 to get bike and we set off to school! :DDD The up-hill part was the most tiring part and my thighs aching like nobody's business from training the day before. Lol, we thought no one would be in school so we cycled in like some big shots and realised that there were a few cca groups and worst thing is, almost all the sec 4s were in the canteen doing their revision. It was super embarrassing so after ordering the books, we speed out of schoool. I LIKE ANGLICAN HIGH SCHOOL'S SLOPE! SUPER NICE, wind blowing through our hairs and breeze's so coooling! Wanted to give grace a surprise visit but she wasn't at home. :( Hey grace, whisky remembers us! :D He barked and wagged his tail at us hahaha.

Then cycled aimlessly around Bedok area and 85 market is closed totally for cleaning up :( Then I decided to follow the mrt track all the way down and Brenda suggested to have lunch at Payar Lebar so we made our way there. The weather was literally a wet blanket; it rained halfway while we were at kembangan! Darn, we were in the middle of no where and the rain just came pouring down. So we scampered to the nearest busstop and waited for around 15mins.


Continued our journey and I took the wrong route 'cause it totally suck with all those shop houses and irritating road barriers. It rained for the second time and we were stranded on the island(busstop again!). ZZZ We were totally drenched by then. Payar Lebar seemed a far destination 'cause no matter how long we cycled, we're still stuck at kembangan-eunos district. Really bad 'cause our ass were hurting badly. :(


Then, after few hours of struggling, we made it! TAAAADAAAAAA.

Had our late lunch, we were super lucky because another downpour occurred! Set off at 4 and we took the another route home. Oh did I mention that there's another UP HILL at kembangan?! Brenda's a )#(@!(_% psycho, she actually managed to cycled up! I came out of my bike and walk up ^^ But the going down part was awesome!

<-- Her gate! That's her big house! Visited Chikoong since it's on the way back Brenda knows the way there. :D Then cycled up hill to Anglican High for the last time to play with the slope. I love slopes! They are the best thing you can ever get when you're too tired to cycle. Cycled to Pasir ris and Brenda chose another uphill route when my thighs are aching and ass is hurting badly. (N) haha but i still love slopes :D And we sure cycle faster than bus 'cause we won the 359 bus! MUahaHAhahahAha ;-)

Time from Payaleba - Pasiris : 2hours.
(but it doesn't seemed that long yea? :D)

Trip back from Pasiris to Tamp was smooth because the traffic lights were in a good mood. We both made it on time for Project superstar. I support Jeremy, Daren, Dawn, Hejing. :) I had a great day today. And I cycled up 5 slopes - 2 Anglican High one, 2 Kembangan one, and 1 Pasir ris one. :DDDDDDDDDD [难忘的一天II]

*edited
Thankyou bro for your bike and thanks brenda for the day! :D

  ¶ 8:27 PM 0 Comments

  Totally burned-out today, but I spent it meaningfully. :)

I think I'm overheaty 'cause I woke up with a bleeding nose. And I stained my sleeves and bedsheet. :( Mommy's gonna have a hard time washing them off. Then I waited for her to get me breakfast but she was too late so I decided I better be going since it's 12.30 and Brenda's alone at tampines sports hall. Argh, when I was downstairs, she called me and what, she just reached home. darn, so I just went training with an empty stomach. And I forgot my towel, and no one in training brought extra, double darn.

Well, training was alright, jiaolian still harps that I'm slow in court. I will work on it so please help me out. Jiaolian haven't tell us whether we'll be in team, guessed he didn't wanna hurt any of our pride. So we'll know some time soon, and Isabel is the one breaking the news to us. =/After training, Brenda and I went swimming. This time we swam 22laps! hahah, great accomplishment ;-) But it was very very very very tiring. Trains stamina and the best thing is you can't feel your perspiration! (Y)

Long and tiring day. Gonna go order books tmr! Brenda and I are gonna cycle to school and after ordering, we'll go exploring the East again. So sad, this year, almost all the books changed syllabus, so I can't take most of them from my brother/cousins. :( And maths textbook come in forms of A and B. SO dumb right! Gonna carry 2 books around. zzz

Goodnight world.  ¶ 9:43 PM 0 Comments

  long time Yesterday was the last day for competition. yay :) / :(

There's this really hugee blister at my foot that's hurting me badly. And worst thing is jiaolian thinks I'm finding excuse and he actually glared at me :'(((((((( WAAAAAAAAAAA Do men have pmsing days too? 'Cause I really find him always picking on me and I can't stand it anymore! DAMN DAMN DAMN since the day competition starts, he has been super impatient with me and although he points out my mistakes, he does it in a very bu-nai-fan manner. Sometimes he still jokes with me, but.. but.. Argh, I hope I'm just being over-sensitive because I really dislike it to the damn core.

Bathing after training is still a good thing because you'll feel super refreshed and you're no longer restricted to do things like lying on your bed when you reach home(ahem, brenda =P) although some people still does it either way. MUahahaHAha. I wonder what would happen to this "bathing scheme" when we split trainings.
So tomorrow is the last training as a sec 2 batch and we'll know whether we get (or not) into school team.
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O levels are ending this week, and I'm going over to my cousin's house to stay over! :)) I went to her place on Sunday after church but she was still studying so I was alone watching dvds, but she's kinda distracted too, so when her Os are over, we can have a marathon! YAY! I just finished full house, and I'm happy that Top on the Forbidden City is back on youtube! I shall go watch 'em. And I won't be using the com from now till next friday 'cause my brother needs the room and computer for his tutorials online for 'A's! But maybe I'll sneak in like now to use it for awhile though.

Take care peeeeeps, bye world.  ¶ 2:03 PM 0 Comments

  - The competition has started.

So far we've played a couple of matches and monday is the last day for us to play. Then friday, would be our last training as badminton girls with zhou :( Damn, it's either we suck or that the seniors are really good, we haven't been performing very well, but jl say that he'll bring 4 in. 4 out of 9 . . . dotszzzz I haven't won any matches, but jl wants me to play a rematch if I'm okay with it. But I haven't play with Silian, Yirong, XiaoQin, Sulin, Yilin(out of town) ,... Whatever.

Susu's gonna be out of Singapore by 1am,
And when she's back, Brenda will leave;
And when Brenda's back, Chikoong and I will leave;
And when we're back, Pandora and Isabel will leave.

Well, so I guessed last friday was the last time we as a sec 2 batch train tgt. Then it's all scattered 'cause either being out of town, or we no longer go to the same training. I will miss all of you, i will; whichever the arrangement is =(

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Oh, and sailing camp is on 29Nov - 1Dec! :) I can't wait for it! It's annually, and I'll be in-charge of games and games and fun! Sadly only 6 pathetic girls in sailing out of 36 sailors, but I'm still gonna make the best out of what we have. :D Yea, probably uncle George's gonna lend me optimist or bike(?) and I'm going out to sail!! Well, I don't mind sitting in the motor boat either since I'll be the one in-charge of video cam-ming. Muahaha, seriously can't wait for it and I just loooove those little ones that'll suffer under me. MUaHAhahahahahaHHAHA

Argh. but Zengwoon's gonna be the "man" again. His male chauvinism and biggg ego suck big bollz and even he's already sec 2, he acts like a petty primary school kid. Boo to him.  ¶ 5:23 PM 0 Comments

  I think the construction of lift outside my house has reached 99999999 decibels.

I neeed peace! darned! :(  ¶ 11:51 AM 0 Comments

  I woke up by a call at 10.30 by Wenmei, was supposed to sleep longer but since the vibration was just so irritating, I decided to just answer the call.

GUESS WHAT.

Haha, most of us got into our first choice. I thought it was supposed to be on the 15th for the results to be out? Yeah, whatever, schoool's efficient. I don't know whether to feel happy or not but at least now, even if I don't get into team, I know I'll still be in the same class as most of them. :DDD

But still..

Today is the selection competition. Everyone wants to get into team; the sec 2s, the sec 3s.. It's an internal fight for position and rank, so there's no more so called "peace and harmony". Really don't wanna split from team 'cause training would definately be less fun and enjoying without them. Whatever, I've gotta go now.

GOODBYE  ¶ 10:52 AM 0 Comments

  The people who went to Shanghai are back! :)

Like finally after 9days not being able to talk to them. Except for Yicheng because he went online using the hotel's computer. ^^ Okay, so I guessed everyone came back safe and sound and tired after enjoying so much. Well, seriously can't wait to catch up with them.

Training's at one later, wednesday is the selection competition alreadyzz. All the best, team.  ¶ 11:47 AM 0 Comments

  past - Oh I forgot to talk about, the survey say I cling on to my past too much that it's gonna be a stumbling block towards my future.

Maybe I really do, even reading my archives during my free time is also a solution to kill time. So, maybe I'll put down my past and really make tomorrow today! It's alright to reminisce about the good things and memories, but I won't let it hinder me. Anyway, I've got a bright future to look forward to! So hell with "Why did I not continue sailing", "What would have happened if I continued", "How I wished I continued my ballet.." zonk, if I wanna continue, I'm gonna get myself a hell lot of regrets. Fact is I've quit, I've quit!

Friends,
I'm gonna put my past behind me. All those unsettled childish feuds, I won't go dig it out and confront it. And I no longer wanna be the dumb me who let this hinder me. If you all want to continue being friends, we'll be the best of friends. Don't be a loser and go "Omg, zhuting has changed so much since the last time.." Well friends, everyone do change, even you, so you either accept who i am now and we'll be best of friends, or you just go cry to your pillow and complaint a long list of why am i no longer the "i" i used to be. If you all wanna treat as if nothing has happen, I'll play along and wave whenever I see you guys. But for now, friends we are still, unless you dont want to.

You all know who you are.

Coool, it feeels so good, like a burden I've carried for long has finally been down! :)
I'm happy, are you? :) :) :)  ¶ 10:13 AM 0 Comments

  We played alot of matches today.

And looks like there's gonna be more of it during the rest of the trainings. =/ Hardly perspire during training today, was really tired? / slack? / no mood? I know I shouldn't play accordingly to my mood but argh, just couldn't perk up. Sorry Isabel!

Jiaolian, "为什么今天那样无精打彩? 看你连汗都没有流到."
Z, "不知道, 只是今天而已, 下次不会了!"
Susie, "Zhuting, I know you did something in the night."

Yeah, Susie putsie the dirty-minded one. Played 4 matches today, and I performed like crap, but at least it made me perspire a little. Then we went running! :) It's always a happy thing after you finished running even though you might be dead tired there while running. I didn't have anyone to follow after since the seniors wanted to "slow" jog with coach. It has been long since I last run 2.4km at tampines stadium so I totally forgot the pace and speeed I should run at. zzz. Brenda was beside me at the 4th round and yes, she's my motivation! Haha, I wanted to stop many a times but I didn't because Brenda was beside me and coach wee once said, "When we ask you all to run, no matter how tired you are, don't stop, this is a test of endurance." Yes, test of endurance! YIPEEEEEEEE.

Went with Susie for a survey 'cause someone didn't want to be mean to reject the person. Know why both of us are friends, because we had really tooooo many things in common! :) We'll both succeed in the future; our future is Soooo0o0 bright that we need to have our shades on! haha, it was really like a fortune telling session, everything they say was soooo true.

Went 201 to collect photographs with brendy after training and we walked two bus stops back. Told you with me, it's gonna be a short trip :P and with her, it was a short trip. lalala.

okay gotta go now, life's hard on me. :(  ¶ 10:33 PM 0 Comments

  Bowling is nice, especially if you play it once in awhile.


"To show that I, Maureen CAN bowl, I decided to post some pictures of the score of me playing with a CCHMS bowler, and two pros." -Fauxinsolence

I feeel so flattered. But this was the first game, so we weren't really warmed up except for this cheekopek girl who ^ look at her scores, pwned me. -.- I've got 85 in the end and I won lester by 1. ^_^v Then we had to change lane because it was booked for other schoools. Freddy keep rushing the countergirl and I could see that she wasn't really pleased with us, but who cares.

Then while we were waiting for our lanes, lester kept on taking candid pictures with his new phone. 2nd game I got 95, lost to Maureen by 1. Her luck is almost gone by then.. =P



Freddy wanted to "waste" the third set but look at the number of strikes/spares he had. -.- He was owning big time when ha, a group of primary schoool students who stink up the place came. Now I think I roughly know how much we stink after sports. =/ Everyone went off-form especially Maureen, but I did better. =P Look at my score!!! I WON Freddy the CCHMS pro bowler by 1. Both of us almost got a turkey.

Then we went to the basement to grab some bite. Lester said there was this new banana pie that was famous, and we went to check it out. It's $1.60(!?) but I guessed it's worth the money? Went Parkway and poor freddy had to carry his 6pounds bowling ball around. Settled at KFC for late lunch and darn, lunch was hell cheesy(literal and metaphor). Maureen and Lester were all well bickering again and going horny dirty-minded all the way. Pop corns and cheese fries makes lester horny.

Went MPH and the sicko-couple went looking for sexual-content(!) books. Okay, I read something which captures our attention.

When a guy dies faced down, all the blood would flow to his dic* causing his dic* to erect.

Sounds sick but yeah, I guess Lester was taking delight in it. =P

180 per game.
"Eh Freddy, do you bowl free when you're training?"
"No, I pay 150 a year."
"HUH? That's cheap."

1.80 per game.
150 per year, he meant -.-

SEeeeeeya!  ¶ 9:26 AM 0 Comments

  training back with zhou We've gone back to zhou for training now. Well, it don't seemed as bad, like we've never changed coaches before. Good thing is, there's no running today! :) But there's confirm gonna be one on friday, which is the last training of the week.

So, yesterday was "last" training with coach wee, and we did 6 sets of sucide running before we were dismissed. I thought it was less tiring than 10 rounds around sports hall but some disagreed. o_O Then team lunch at pizza hut, yay! I had Ham'Sheers delight which was totally a wrong choice but I guessed I still love team lunches ;-) Pan's evil plan did work out on Susu despite Bell's many attempt to stop the disaster from happening.
Lesson learnt: Watch out if your cheese/pepper/salt shaker is all tightly capped before using it.
Everyone still had a good laugh. :) The poor cheese shaker only left half a bottle by the time we left, bad thing for pizza hut! Left for Times bookstore afterward, it's nice to know that your team mates are also all hooked onto books, even people like Brenda and I =P

Tiring day, sorry for the short post because I still wanna do blog surfing and I have limited time since my brother has to use the com for his tutorials. He's taking "A" level examination tmr, and currently feeling stressed. Nevertheless, he never fails to give way to his sister who haven't been using the com for 2 days and is dying to use it. I'm grateful for him, like i always do. :D

God bless my brother tmr and Good bye!  ¶ 5:54 PM 0 Comments