Esplanade concert! met team for dinner at pasta mania. :)
shared pizza with pandoraaaaa while the rest had pastas. ate till 645 and we left for esplanade. frozen yoghurt is nice.

saw everyone there, all dressed up and ready for this "grand" occasion. the seats were in a very steep slope and brenda didnt dare to sit down until sue ean and i assured her that nothing would happened. had a clear view of everyone there. and i managed to spot yingzhi. :D the whole concert was kinda draggy but i guess it was the performers big day. netballers had good seats while we could only do kallang wave during the intercession.

big group left to set off for supper. what happens when there's a real big group? many problems. not all may agree to something and not all will be fully pleased with the decision. i disliked being manipulated. well you had a real indirect way of scolding us. dogs. well done. anyway our main idea wasnt to go with you guys. i'm really starting to hate you now. note: hate. the world seriously dont only revolves around you. go mars for all i care. and stop denying you ain't aiming us coz you'll just be like a moron that's trying to cover up what he's just spilled when everyone's looking. yes we are sluts bitches morons idiots low down assss. you are the best. you have all say and all the final decision lies in your hands. so whatever i did was soooo wrong, will euu please forgive miiee?

i guess the only person that really understands me is brenda. you are the one that really knows what's going through my mind at different moments probably, like today. a pat on my shoulder, some encouragements or simply just some nice phrase to make my day. i rather a small and happy group than one that's so big where everyone's not happy. thanks for everything and i think just with you around makes me feel so secure and safe. i dont believe in forever but i hope we'll be lasting friends. :)

well, it ends here.  ¶ 4:00 AM 0 Comments

  why is everyone in girls badminton team starting to use as much as i love ____ ? whatever.

i know the reason of isabel's reaction and mood on friday but why dont i seem to be able to do something? isabel, take care!

esplanade later and we're gonna have a team dinner at pizzza hut first. :) running out of topics. this explains the reason why so many ppl are not blogging regularly too.

bye world  ¶ 9:34 AM 0 Comments

  happy birthday vivian! :)

bored long day and i just screwed my new printer up.  ¶ 3:01 PM 0 Comments

  Packed up C boys won champion! :))))) kenneth and tengrui top scorer, yicheng missed two points to be one! C girls played a good match :) AHS ALWAYS HAVE BASKETBALLERS TO BE PROUD OF.

Mentally and physically stressed and worn out. I'm so lucky that founders day, investitures and the DV is finally over. Many things happened too quickly these few days. and it's difficult for me to keep on putting a smile on my face. i'm so tired that sometimes i just wanna give up. and the worst thing is i've worked hard for so many things just to realised that it all comes to nothing. i'm so irritated but i'm also lucky to have so many friends that are so supportive of me, and if i'm tired, i know i can rest, because they are always here for me. :D

many tests are coming up next. and we just had our maths one done. graphs was quite okay but i guessed many did not have the time to finish? well, anyway, the next important thing is esplanade concert and then 2.4km run. i really want it over and done with because these events are always bugging me and i hate the feeling of it. training's still as intense, and i guess more footwork from now onwards. determination will perseverance.

things dont go the way i want it to and sometimes i really feel like banging my head into the wall to relieve my stress. i'm not psycho. ya whatever (*&@#)(@!_)#+!()@_!#)!&$(!@)+!_@#)+!(@__)()@#+!_)@_*$#(*!)@(!_*)+!#)_$*)(@&%)(@_!&$)@(#_+!

hongkai's ankle is swollen like an egg. hope he recovers soon :)
"what's the use of holding on to someone with no intention of staying"  ¶ 9:35 AM 0 Comments

  Investiture investiture today.
i seriously cant bear huimin to leave us. she cried when handing over, and i guess everyone's heart just sanked, all wanted to cry, but held it back. i wonder what would be the situation like next year. saw many photos we took together, and suddenly realised that actually we've been through alot together. all the camps, functions, and meetings, these sure made us closer.

those sarcasism really suck. if you're so smart, try doing a week without us. if not, shut your trap.

rushed for training. didnt do much today coz it started at 4. we've got our cheques, finally. anyway, there isnt much to blog about. still as busy as ever with many tests coming up. by the way, tomorrow's basketball finals with dunman sec. remember to support! :)  ¶ 9:15 PM 0 Comments

  Dedicated to my bestie; brenda!

That's what friends are for
And I never thought I'd feel this way
And as far as I'm concerned
I'm glad I got the chance to say
That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away
Well then close your eyes and try
To feel the way we do today
And then if you can remember

Chorus:
Keep smiling
Keep shining
Knowing you can always count on me for sure
That's what friends are for

For good times and bad times
I'll be on your side forever more
That's what friends are for

Well you came in loving me
And now there's so much more I see
And so by the way I thank you

Oh and then for the times when we're apart
Well then close your eyes and know
The words are coming from my heart
And then if you can remember

----------------------

yvonne and xiwen, a big hug and a big smile for you two! Stay happy and keep on smiling. I'm happy that both of you didnt give up what you all once cherished. cheers;

i wasted my whole sunday again! seriously dont know what to study for history. the homework are just piling. bye, back to work.


I BELIEVE; because believing makes me feel more blessed. (:  ¶ 7:11 PM 0 Comments

  Founder's day! :D I'm so tired. Just came back from investiture rehearsal and founders day.

today's founder's day was a sucess! Nothing cocked up and everything when smoothly. I overslept today and woke up at 620(the time i was supposed to meet meixuan), she was also late so i thought we could take a cab down together. well no, coz she had already boarded the bus and it had already passed my stop. yea, i rushed like crap and when i reached the bus stop, meixuan told me no one except she and vivian was there so i decided not to take cab down. reached there at 655, and started preparing. if was very hot and tiring and we were pespiring like crazy even before the actual thing starts.

mr mok bought breakfast for us! =) okay he's another nice teacher added to "my favourite teachers in anglican" list. not because of the breakfast only definately.

yes the concert totally rocks and it's the best concert so far we've ever done! well at least i enjoyed myself totally and i managed to catch up with vivian alittle more at back stage. they sang "that's what friends are for" REAL WELL. and the poppers are really nice! everyone just went crazy after the concert. see, i told you the joy of accomplishing something together is so much more memorable. :) yes, and we get to bond more!

i've really bonded alot with PA, functions and council. :D the camps really make us real close. stayed back for investiture rehearsal. sorry alicia andrea and bel and thanks for always being willing to wait for me! so anyway, i've found out that sucking in helium makes you talk like a baby! it was so fun trying out. so we gotta stay back after schoool on monday and tuesday to get the investiture things done. excused from training.
freak, why are there so many things happening now!

i need sleep.  ¶ 7:00 PM 0 Comments

  in the midst of solving my problems, i've neglected so many around me that needed me so much then. i'm sorry. i hope it's not too late now though.

what can i do for you now?
what else can i do for you besides being here by your side?  ¶ 11:19 PM 0 Comments

  Mdm SOh- Joke of the year fifth science teacher of the year and probably the worst now.

oooh hi teacher. you look so great in that hairstyle.
"i'm bringing you to the science lab now. please hold your partner's hands and put your fingers on your lips" -.=

woah damn sexy. she's the new joke in our class.  ¶ 9:09 PM 0 Comments

  ARGH! ()@$*#()*#@! i dont know why i still can blog here when i have lots of homework waiting for me. i'm overstressssed. so many project works these days. and i have training and all, council's getting busy and stuffs. and it's always andrea and i getting stressed over all the project works coz we are always the two online most of the time. -___- so many homework uncompleted, so many projects to be dued!

and i just came back from kallang after doing the PA shirt. it cost $13 per shirt and i think that's rather cheap. i'm falling asleep and i can drop dead on if i want to. i'm left with hist groupwork(PLEASE HELP), dnt, and hist individual. i've gotta work on my time management.

founder's day has been keeping me busy for the past few saturdays and the worst thing is that i still have to finish my homework and revise my subject for common test. i cant do it on friday as i have training. then sat has been very packed. so it's left to sunday and i think it is very last minute.
worst news: investiture is next wednesday. have to stay back after founder's day for rehearsal. if cant finish, may need to come back on sunday. what does that add up to? = whole weekend busy. good bye all my goals. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

FREAKING SCHOOL CANT THEY JUST GIVE US A BREAK! are you so desperate that you also gotta eat up our saturday?! freak freak. ths school sucks. :(

thank you brenda for reminding me!

Brenda says:
persevere OKAY!!
Brenda says:
you can do it!
.zigaa. Determination.Perseverance.Will says:
=))
.zigaa. Determination.Perseverance.Will says:
thanks for reminding me!

just what i needed.  ¶ 9:20 PM 0 Comments

  Determination thanks so much yinGz! :DDDDDDDDD
you have been a wonderful friend!

science test today and i've flunked my ray diagram part. man, graci and i both hope for at least an A2. zzzzzzzzz english was boring again. i know i shouldn't be saying that but... it is still. i just hope my english by end year would get at least an A. tmr's lessons are gonna be superrrrrr.. useless i shall say.. we're gonna have ACC and CD together for the last two periods. wonderfuuuuuuuuuul.

training was normal. nothing much happened. coach now likes putting me to singles. =/ anyway, i've got lots to improve on, esp my netting. Sue eaNNNN's netting seriously is good. I need that kind of standard, at least for now. My determination really sucks. Actually, come to think of it, i don't really have much perseverance. :( Whenever coach ask us to run, I run, and then when i'm leading, i tend to tell myself, "since i'm leading so much, walking for a while doesn't matter. when the rest catches up, then i'll start running again." and when ppl overtakes me, i tell myself "i'll catch up later." so on and so forth. okay, before you come to any conclusion that i suck or whatever, i'm gonna tell you i'll train on my determination from now onwards!

brenda has more perseverance than me. she runs the whole round without walking. and i think that is another factor i'm gonna work on - stamina and perseverance. although i'm still the first few to finish, i could have been the first if not for me walking, even not, at least my timing will definitely(pan i got this right!) improve. haha thanks brenda, you're gonna remind me from today onwards about my determination right! :D

no long run today. coach made us run ten rounds, sprint then slow jog, sprint then slow jog continuously. that trains our will too; our will to run our best, our will to not give up, our will to not start walking... and i did that! :D great surge of accomplishment after completing, seriously. i cant wait for another 2.4km run. i'm gonna push myself, and i hope i can feel that sense of accomplishment again.  ¶ 7:14 PM 0 Comments

  i have dnt left to do.
i have art left to do.
i have science left to revise.
i have history which andrea, grace and i know nothing about.
i have a few more hours to finish them all.

school's great at flooding us.
school's great at minusing our holidays.
school's great at being stingy.
school's great on the outside only.

I NEEEDD MORE TIME.
I NEEEDD TO ACE SCIENCE.
I NEEEDD TO HAVE ENOUGH SLEEEP.

teachers tell us not to be overstress. yet they gives us homework which would obviously stress us. -_____- yay school so rocks!
  ¶ 2:43 PM 0 Comments

  i believe no one in life has never got this thinking ever before "why, what's the use of this? i might as well quit!" but like what sue ean has said, god provides us strength for each new step. ask, He's my father, my provider.
have you ever seen a child crawling into the house and bending his head low because he's afraid and even when he's hungry, he begs? no. they come in, boldy and ask, "mum/dad, i'm hungry, when's dinner?" so how much more does our heavenly father wants us to be more at ease with him? and not pleading him for something. how many times is the word "ask" appeared in the bible?

when everything looks bleak and when there seemed to be no possible hope for getting what i used to desire, shall i just abandon my dreams and say "i give up"?

dont quit. my faith will see me through. i hope so.
thanks nat for the book. =) it may be another stepping stone on to higher level of breakthrough.  ¶ 8:07 AM 0 Comments

  i know i've been over-sensitive these days, reacting in a way that surprises you all, and not to deny, sometimes thinking back at it, i really regret and asked myself why the hell did i even do/say that in the first place. my reaction has maybe been too extreme. little things pissed me off, little things makes me feel weird, little things done makes me wanna withdraw from the crowd. it's really very hard to keep putting a smile on your face when deep down in your heart, you're feeling like shit. i feel real insecure. and this insecurity in me is really tensing me up and making me feel right down uncomfortable. insecure about many things; god, studies, badminton, friends... i really dont feel like caring about other things but i know this world doesn't only belong to me alone. i wish i could do all i want, but everything has its limits. looks like i'm back into bondage where the feeling is there no matter how much you cry/scream/shout your hearts out.

i'm going through another tough phase of my life again, and all i hope is that my friends could give me the support i need to carry on... just this once again, please.  ¶ 3:27 PM 0 Comments

  Monday was a tiring day.
Had class but no common test that day. I can't remember what happened. Let's talk about training! :D Went tampines sports hall again. Only 2 hrs of training so we didn't do footwork but started right away. Stroked with Xiaoqin and then played a doubles and singles match again. Actually, I'm quite glad that coach doesn't want to split isabel and I up again. =) In fact, he allows us to play doubles more often than anything else. yay! After training, he brought us to the track to run. zzz. we all complained as there are tonnes of homework waiting for us but to a coach like him, the more we complain, the more he'll give us to do, so we decided to just listen to him. ran 6 rounds around the stadium(2.4), at least better than some sprinting or what. i enjoyed training today. =)

today
It was definately a torture to keep awake throughout 6 periods. Not many in class did art and we all thought that mrs neo is not collecting it today. I did my art but decided to redo and do it nicer. thanks leeying for helping me with the shading! =) I hate shading. zzz it takes this muuuucch patience to shade and get the shade you desire, and worst still, i can't control my pencil well enough. but at least i did 3 ears today =) left 2 ears, 5 eyes, 5 nose, and 5 mouths. it's so difficult to draw the nose i swear! history and we were having stupid talks among ourselves.

Pulling it together in one direction,
Working together, we'll have some fun!  ¶ 5:01 PM 0 Comments

  a day gone Went to school early in the morning for founder's day rehearsal.

The school is crazy. They are even willing to buy 12 head worns which costs $15000 for this supposedly "grand" event when usually we have to plead them and all they get is just a few mikes for us, or maybe none. -_- And these head worns won't even belong to us at the end of the day. Okay, what am i complaning about. =/ The head worns are cool and it definately saved us lots of manpower not needing to get up the stage and pluck in the wire mikes. The rehearsal ended at 12, stayed back for debrief and went for functions meeting.

Sec fours are leaving and time definately passed really fast. Looks like we are still what they are worrying most about. Yes, the time spent working together is much more memorable than time spent when you hang out together. In all situations. Maybe working towards the same goal makes our heart and mind unite together and we go all out to meet it. What I would miss most is probably the scolding sessions and crying sessions. These past one and a half year definately changed a portion of me and made me what I am now. And I'll definately miss you, huimin.
I can say that you're the one that really showered all your care and concern to me these past years. Although the time spent with you is not alot, but every time spent, you always cared about my welfare and made sure I was not left out. I still rmbed the camps we went through, the time when I injured my leg, the time that I had fever that lasted two days at 39degrees, you were there by me always.

I wonder what we'll all be like next year, when i'm sec 3. Went to paint the PA room thereafter. Zhiyong, Hari, Justin, Bryan, Yiyee, Wei hua, Vivian, Meixuan, Charmaine and I stayed back to paint. It's a nice shade of blue and it really looks cosy now. We took a few hours to paint and was chased out by the uncle who wants to lock up the hall. I feel so weird coz it's undone and we all wanna get it done by today. =/ whatever.

Went church thereafter and got home at 845.

Thankyou Yujie.  ¶ 11:00 AM 0 Comments

  many funny happenings CIP
This trip was quite a fruitful one, i hope the grannies enjoyed it too. :) We were all getting so excited during history period and that's when grace started,
"omg, i'm so afraid to grow old.. like one day.. "
"tsk, everyone has to grow old!"
"yeah.. it'll be so cool if we would meet up again when we are old and then go bugis and hang out together."
"by then, we'll be too old!"
"it's okay, we'll support each other! one fall, all fall."
"yeah, then you'll see five hip hop grannies walking together."
"YES! AND THEN WE'LL GO TAKE NEOS TOGETHER!"
*all starts laughing. imagine that and you can laugh till you cry.
okay, back to it. Actually actually actually, i forgot what i wanted to share about my experience with them. The granny I accompanied was friendly! And she shares alot of her life experience with me.. :D

today
It was a nice day today. Happy birthday wenmei :D

Isabel got the flowers from wenmei and brought it to us. She looks so commical that time and we just can't stop laughing. And then we each got one. I've got a nice hot pink one. =) then tengrui came into the classroom and asked me, "eh.. how come you all got flowers one..?"
-turned back to take my flower.
brenda, " *literally starts laughing* hahaha, your flower broke le!! *continues laughing*"
(shock coz i didn't know it broke, gave her the stupid look, turn back to my flower and just at the split second, she was laughing too hard that she accidentally broke hers too, "OH SHIT, mine broke too!" )
i started laughing like mad. sheesh. haha brenda =P and she dont find it funny. WHY, i think it's so funny. but she still laughed with me for at least a minute!

training was going to start at 2 and school ended at 12 today. we slacked in class and pandora was playing with brenda's phone again! i wonder what's so amusing in there that keeps her fingers so glued to it! Brenda and i used thinner to clean the white board, and it's really white now. =) I stroked with brenda in class until 1.15 when we left for the bus 10 busstop. Isabel says we would be late so brenda and i compete who can get down faster. obviously i was the first to reach =X haha brenda has to write "wo shi zhu tou(i'm pighead)" 5 times in her blog now :D

we were not the first but not the last either to reach. jiaolian was behind us all the while but he didn't say a word until i saw him after i turned back! lol. we had 4 courts for 3hrs. quite alot of ppl came but only 4 sec 2s were there so jiaolian gave us a court! :) did the same things. i really felt so inferior during the first hour coz i totally lost my touch and i can't seem to hit the shuttle. And you know when things keep going wrong, when you are so lost, that's when you're gonna fall deeper if you dont save yourself up on time. but as the training continues, i've got my confidence back :D seeing so many more ppl better than me makes me sad but somehow, it makes me wanna work harder too.

played a doubles with isabel and singles against ether.
hahaha the floor seriously is slippery! yupp but i got the feel of the court and i can sense my chemistry with isabel back :D won 21-16.
then jiaolian asked me to play singles again. and it's with ether this time. ! and i said something really dumb. "EUGENIA, crazy ar?!" and it's then after everyone heard me that i realised i said eugenia instead of ether. =/ super embarrassed and all the seniors were looking at me. played with her 11 points and i lost at 8. zzzzzzzz. okay jiaolian gives me that smile again and said good job? =/ lol.

time passed fast today. and it was super fun and funny. :) especially with brenda there to brighten my day. pan's mind very flexible. she thinks of ideas to shoot brenda fast. xD after training, we wanted to go mac but brenda was indesicive. tsk. but pandora, being able to counter it, persuaded her. haha it took her less than 5 mins to get brenda going. slacked and crapped like mad. and then another embarrasing thing happened. -___- go read brenda's blog for it.
I AM NOT GONNA TALK ABOUT IT. pan and brenda keeps making fun of it. i am gonna dig a hole now.

grace, "brenda wants me to tell you that she has updated her blog"
me, "why cant she tell me herself?"
grace, "how i know"

i went to ask brenda.
"why cant you tell me you update you blog yourself?"
"like that more cool mah."

now i know what's always going through brenda's mind. MUAHAHAH.  ¶ 8:17 PM 0 Comments

  http://www.artyfactory.com/

http://www.portrait-artist.org/

this are the two webs we are supposed to go. we're supposed to do it now for art lesson but i can see that almost half the class either blogging, or blog surfing. school's supposed to end now coz it's 12 already but everyone doesn't care. =/

we went changi airport yesterday. it was fun. xD shall blog more gtg byebye  ¶ 11:58 AM 0 Comments

  I FINALLY FINISHED MY DNT! :))) WAHAH this is something great i've done today and i think it's worth a short sentence of this post! that's something worth rejoicing for today.

there's no spt tmr. we're gonna accompany old folks to changi airport. man i havent touched my racket since last week. i hope this friday's training will not be cancelled again. :)

physical doesn't matter. it trains our perseverance.

science test is next week, and i'm feeling the pressure.

thank you andrea! =)


-  ¶ 8:18 PM 0 Comments

  nothing much happened today.

chinese was boring. lee teacher didn't come. was playing sos with brenda. and i won her 79-76. i just remembered i need to do chinese compre :(

maths was boring. drawing of graphs again. it's rather easy though.

science was boring. did practical on reflection on light and the results weren't even accurate. geraldine and i just cheated and did our own metal sums. this term's science not nice! i wanna do practical on chemistry again. it's so fun playing around with those chemicals and trying out new stuffs with them.

english was boring. try spending 2 last hour of school to keep awake when the topic is so boring. did arguementative essay.

--

my deepest regrets are words unsaid and things undone. i agree too.

left the dumbest dnt to do and i'm off to sleep.  ¶ 5:27 PM 0 Comments

  One lesson learnt: Never to take the early 17 bus alone.

I hate it so much to walk up that stupid road alone but I hate it more when there's cats and dogs around. -__- Twice i've seen, Twice i've ran, Twice i've been seen. zzzz this is so dumb lar! Firstly, the dog loooks super ferocious but actually, it does no harm. Secondly, the cat looks so gentle but it intimidates me.

Dog Story
One day, I'm walking to school as usual when suddenly I saw a dog at the link way, sticking its tongue out and wagging its tail vigorously. Naturally, I would stop and hesitate and wonder if I should walk pass it, or go another longer way. Then I took the longer way lest the dog suddenly jump on me and start chasing after me. (lame) So as I walked to the other entrance, another guy walked past the dog and looked at me curiously, wondering why I took the other way. Filled with humiliation, I bend my head low and rushed up chang cheng. -__-

Cat Story
Today, I was again walking to school. As I took the 6.10 bus, which is freaking early, there was only this sec 3 girl and I. I was leading, again. Then I saw this cute(or maybe not) little kitten at the link way again. Seeing it being a kitten, of course I wasn't that scared, so I took a step nearer and wanted to walked past it. As my shadow covered the kitten, it suddenly turned and stare at me with its blue eyes and started to purr. I stepped back and look at the girl, half embarrassed. Then as both of us were equally afraid, we both took the long way.

THIS IS SO LAME. -_____________-
(sorry i cant find anything else to blog)
Did the book test today. I wrote a 6 pages essay. It was first time in my whole entire life since this was a chinese one. I hope I didn't write out of point. Nothing else. BYE.  ¶ 4:57 PM 0 Comments

  sports day was yesterday.

I lost in my 200m again by 1 spilt second. That's the worst thing I would ever wanna know besides me being defeated again every sports day but not on heats. I hate false hopes and I swear I didn't see cihui beside me when I was running. Lost anyway. Won her before, can win again and lost to her just by 1 split second. zzz. Second for that. Nothing but loads of disappointment.

4x100m relay. We were losing at the start and everything was screwed but in my mind, I just wanna win for my teammates and I. Although my morale has dropped alot due to the event prior, I knew this is a team event and I don't wanna cause my team to lose because of my low self esteem. Our start weren't as good as before but I know everyone tried their best. Practically everyone was ahead of us(badminton) but luckily Theresa helped to overtake. Got third in the end after overtaking don't know who.

4x400m relay. Again we were losing at the start. One of the last few but at least not the last like on heats. Brenda helped caught up again and we got third. I was very motivated by her perseverance and her will to win and when she passed the baton to me, I told myself I better not let anyone overtake me. We got second in the end, which was rather unexpected. That was the only event I'm proud of. I didn't see any sjab ppl anyway. =/

So I left sports day this year without clinching any gold. I am disappointed but what I can only say now is "come back stronger next year"? I know the rest will too. Sec 4s next year. Good luck everyone. =)

Went for team lunch after that at kfc. Andrea is the hot mama and Sue ean is Xiao ming's fries feeder. Grace dared me to go into the gents and I went after her took the lead. LOL. Went back to school for filming after that. Took quite long but we got in done in the end :)

Met Isabel and Alicia to watch superman returns sneakpreview. It's a nice show. Superman has nice eyes. HAHA. reached home at mid night and i was dead beat. Fell on my bed and slept till 12 this morning! lol  ¶ 12:35 PM 0 Comments